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		<description><![CDATA[<a href="http://nail.prismaticmedia.com/stories/identity-chips/">Kolya reveals the hazards of travelling in the Transponder-Only lane at the airport.</a>

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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>In hindsight, I really should&#8217;ve seen the gunman coming.</p>
<p>Passing through a Confederacy immigration control point in the Transponder line, even in full human form, is going to set off somebody&#8217;s private alarm somewhere. Sure, there&#8217;re metal detectors and stripsearches and ten kinds of security to keep weapons out of transit areas, but there are ways around those sorts of things, not limited to bribery and nepotism. Most authorities report catching high numbers of smugglers into and out of secured areas, but never as a percentage of the total number of people suspected of bringing contraband goods through a restricted-access point. The fact is, a person as high-profile as I am is going to get recognised by somebody almost anywhere he goes, whether it&#8217;s by sight, voice or ID code. Being partly responsible for the system that allows such easy recognition, it&#8217;s little wonder I had someone waiting to greet me with open arms and a double-barrel welcome mat. Not everybody appreciates becoming just another number in an international database.</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t even think I was tailed; my senses were jacked up high enough that the only good means of following me would&#8217;ve been using the ever-present security cameras that come as a natural function of life inside a technopolis. The best that a physical being could have hoped was to duplicate what the electronics already knew, and in so doing they&#8217;d almost certainly have set off my paranoia and whatever advantage they could&#8217;ve gained by knowing where I was would&#8217;ve been lost by my awareness that I was being traced.</p>
<p>My best reconstruction of the event goes something like this: I walked through the Transponder gate at the inbound immigration checkpoint. A complex series of interactions between the transceiver in the archway, the Universal Identity Transponder implanted at the base of my neck, and the nearest International Identification Registry system led to the conclusion that I was, in fact, listed in the IIR database. The computer back-ending the transceiver proudly displayed the results of its queries about my country of citizenship (Cascadia), legal adult status (yes), outstanding criminal warrants (none in any IIR member nation or Interpol database) and permission to travel within the Confederacy (seven-day transit pass, work permitted within Confederate borders). Nothing suggesting anything out of the ordinary came up, so the green light flashed and a small bell toned to pass me through the gate. At that same instant, a second signal, most likely from a trojan wired up by the gunman&#8217;s accomplice in the Monitor booth, caused the gunman&#8217;s beeper to buzz, alerting him that the target had just passed through immigration and would be clear of customs momentarily. Assuming he was stationed near the exit gate, this would&#8217;ve given him ample time to set up for the shot.</p>
<p>Travelling as a full human, with no visibly abnormal traits, I had carelessly assumed that I would go unrecognised by the vast majority. Purists strike me as being such luddites when it comes to certain aspects of technology that I forget how sophisticated they can really be when not dealing with areas of modern science that they think violate their religious beliefs. So, my guard was down. That gave the gunman all the opportunity he needed to fire off three connecting shots. One went straight through my abdomen, missing my spine but removing a large chunk of my liver. The second connected with my upper chest, probably rupturing both lungs and doing unpleasant things to my cardiac rhythm. The third took out my right shoulder and probably disconnected my arm from the rest of my body.</p>
<p>I didn&#8217;t even have time to scream before I went into shock. The part of my brain responsible for processing pain went into overdrive, then got deactivated two milliseconds later by an override circuit designed for just such an occasion; with the crosscurrent flooding out all the meaningful signals, I was literally incapable of feeling the aftereffects of the shots. Call me old-fashioned but drugs designed to prevent a patient from waking up scare the hell out of me, as does the idea of any chemical that stops me from being able to remember anything that happened under its influence. I&#8217;d rather rely on a few microamps cutting off access to the synapses and be wide awake when somebody tampers with my body than trust any surgeon, no matter how skilled, to do what I want without me being right there to point out corrections while zie works. It activates itself automatically when it detects an excessive rate of signal is coming through that area of the brain; this means I can still feel minor injuries, but anything more serious than a bad sunburn or a papercut and I&#8217;ll only notice a quick twinge and then numbness.</p>
<p>Falling back onto the tile in shock and confusion, I was dimly aware of difficulty breathing, more gunshots, screams and general confusion. One unfortunate side effect of the override circuit is that it tends to throw my other sensory perceptions out of whack. I saw sparkles in front of my eyes, the overhead lights started humming loudly in my ears and then hundreds of hands lifted me and started carrying me along the corridor. I felt a deep pressure in my left arm, one that I had long ago learned to identify as the prick of a needle while under the influence, and then everything faded to a uniform grey static and white noise in my ears.</p>
<p>When I came around, more recognizable by the fact that I knew when I blinked than anything else, I was flat on my back staring up at the ceiling. Fluorescent white strips overhead stared down at me. I saw tiny rainbows around the edges of the lights, telling me the pain inhibitor was still active.</p>
<p>A voice startled me out of complacent comptemplation. &#8220;Awake, I see.&#8221;</p>
<p>I tried to turn my head but found I had all the muscle-tone of a wet tea towel. My brain put together the commands to string together a sentence but rather than words coming out of my mouth, a synthesiser near the bed picked up on the signals approaching my vocal cords and intercepted them, translating them into speech, albeit much less emotional and flatter than my own: &#8220;Doc, is that you?&#8221;</p>
<p>Doctor Richard Sanford, the man who had overseen every one of my major Transitions and most of my minor ones, chuckled and leaned over into my field of vision. Light reflected off the top of his balding head and into my eyes. &#8220;Don&#8217;t bother trying to move anything below your lips; you&#8217;re on a motor-control inhibitor to stop you from pulling apart any of the innumerable stitches currently holding you together. That includes your vocal  cords.&#8221;</p>
<p>A mechanical laugh echoed out of the speechbox. &#8220;Your mother would be proud; all those sewing lessons paid off.&#8221;</p>
<p>Sanford smiled, showing his almost-perfect even white teeth. &#8220;We had to grow you a liver, two lungs, several meters of small intestine, a stomach and several kilos of muscle, bone, nerve and skin to put you back the way you were when you left. You want to tell me how my handiwork got so badly damaged?&#8221;</p>
<p>After a moment of pondering and two false starts, I managed to get the synthesizer to say, &#8220;A man with a shotgun wanted more than a few words with me. Where am I?&#8221; The last was a question but, as usual, the confounded mechanical contraption delivered it all in a flat monologue. I might as well have been reading a grocery list.</p>
<p>The doctor clucked his tongue and then leaned back out of my field of vision. &#8220;Pity,&#8221; he said, ignoring my question. &#8220;I was so hoping that for once, you&#8217;d manage to not damage my artwork while showing it off to the world.&#8221;</p>
<p>I swore to myself that one day I was going to figure out how to tell from his voice when Sanford was being funny and when he was being serious. However, it wasn&#8217;t going to be today. &#8220;Couldn&#8217;t let that happen. Besides, human is boring.&#8221;</p>
<p>He laughed. &#8220;It&#8217;s familiar, though. I&#8217;ll stick to my form for now. I can embrace some areas of new technology and support others without practicing them all on myself. What were you doing in the Confederacy, anyway?&#8221;</p>
<p>I tried to sigh but it came out as a quiet hum on the speaker. &#8220;Private installation. Details classified.&#8221;</p>
<p>Sanford clucked his tongue again. &#8220;Well, I&#8217;ll leave you to recover, then. Try to stay comfortable; you&#8217;ll have plenty of time to mull over what to do from here.&#8221; I closed my eyes, reducing the world to blackness. I heard footsteps and then the quiet click of a doorlatch falling into place. Unable to do anything else, I lay back and listened to the sound of my own heartbeat and the silent hum of machines as they lulled me into oblivion.</p>
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I learned to hate the motor-block after two days of being flipped, rotated and shifted by the nursing staff. A tube running into my nose and down my throat pumped oxygen-rich air into my lungs while IVs hooked into my still-properly-attached left arm dripped nutrient solutions directly into my bloodstream. A catheter ensured that I wouldn&#8217;t have to get up for even that necessity. If it hadn&#8217;t been for the ever-present hum of the support machines and access to my music collection through the clinic&#8217;s stereo, I probably would&#8217;ve gone mad. I kept trying to tell myself that this waiting was no different from all the times I had Transitioned, that the endless monotony of being trapped inside my own head would pass and that I would soon have a brand new body, but the fact that for once I had had my old one taken away from me forcibly rather than simply choosing to trade it in or upgrade it kept intruding on that idea.</p>
<p>After a week of being turned this way and that by a rotating schedule of nurses who showed all the personal interest of a blind date, Doc Sanford came in, looked me over, pronounced me fit to move under my own power and removed the motor inhibitor. It took an hour for everyone to pull out the lengths of tubing that had kept me tied into the machines that acted as life-support. The first thing I did under my own manpower was walk to the toilet; it was probably my most rewarding physical experience to date. Solid food followed closely behind, if you can call warm oatmeal solid. I was still dazed and lightheaded from the override circuit being active constantly, but ignoring that, I felt as good as I did before the &#8220;incident.&#8221;</p>
<p>The incident. After attending to all my relevant bodily functions, I found a terminal and started scanning for news reports from the Confederacy. It wasn&#8217;t hard. The network returned several reports published over a span of hours, from two minutes after the first shot to morning-after, all accompanied by high-quality full-color-and-stereo security camera feeds of three solid impacts slamming into my chest, picking me up and flinging me  gracefully in a close-to-parabolic arc, coming to rest splayed out on the tile floor, the shotgun-wielder standing over me for all of two seconds, savoring the moment.</p>
<p>Ignoring the bulk of the story for the moment, I focused my attention first on the video footage. Several full-speed passes through the graphic display of violence made the hair on the back of my neck rise; I felt as if I were attending my own funeral. I halted the flow of images and pulled a close-up of my assailant&#8217;s face. Smoke curling away from the barrels gave him a halo effect. He was bald but probably hadn&#8217;t shaved his head in a few days. His eyes were sunken, as were the rest of his features to some degree; he looked like someone had punched a bowl of bread dough, stuck the man&#8217;s face on the indented surface and then let it rise. He was overweight but not fat, or at least not disproportionately so. His lips were curled back in an animal&#8217;s snarl, but his eyes gleamed with sadistic pleasure. Studying him, I couldn&#8217;t help but think that he was getting some kind of twisted kick out of doing his deity&#8217;s dirty work. Zooming back out, I got a look at his clothes. His jacket and pants were an unbleached off-white and around his neck I caught the flash of polished metal, the golden stylized flame-and-world pendant showing membership in, or at least some affiliation with, the Purist movement.</p>
<p>I sighed and saved a few images extracted from the datastream for my personal files, then called up the associated texts. Thomas Elijah Westborough, born and raised in Jackson, Mississippi, was in custody eleven minutes and twenty-two seconds after shooting &#8220;Kolya Jensen, self-appointed architect of the Brave New World&#8221;. A few reports from more conservative news services went into wild speculation behind the reason for the co-inventor of the so-called Identity Chip to be in a place so opposed to his very existence, with claims ranging from conversion to several different One True Ways to secret meetings with subversives in government planning to make the Confederacy a puppet-signatory to the Reunified Northam talks. Those that chose not to guess why I was there did go so far as to wonder openly about it.</p>
<p>I had to laugh at the title bestowed upon me. It wasn&#8217;t my fault that religion couldn&#8217;t keep pace with technology; that particular race had been lost so many times on so many tracks over the years that it hardly seemed worth the effort to run it again. The right to die, the origin of life, the rising of the sun, and the shape of the earth&#8212;to pick a select few choice contests&#8212;had all come under attack as being against the whims or wishes of some Invisible Pink Unicorn or Magical Sky-Daddy over the years. All of them had eventually forced the devout and the devoted to come to grips with the fact that, a few glitches in quantum physics aside, the universe didn&#8217;t really care what they wanted to be true.</p>
<p>It also wasn&#8217;t my fault that Transponder technology had had become so ubiquitous. Transition technology had made almost every form of physical identification useless; given a month and enough money, you could become anyone or anything, within certain limits. Want to be an elephant for your kid&#8217;s jungle-themed birthday this fall? Two months and fifty-grand, give or take two weeks of physical therapy. Want to look like Chartreuse or Rocco Carboni? Twenty-thousand and two weeks. Sure, people have died in the tanks, but have died on surgical tables for as long as we&#8217;ve been lifting people out of the dirt to keep their incision sites clean, and I don&#8217;t hear a lot of clamoring for going back to the leeches-and-emetics theory of medicine. So, even if most people still operate under the very comforting delusion that they still look like their old Northam Identicards, the truth is that you couldn&#8217;t trust them to match, assuming they were still valid.</p>
<p>It wasn&#8217;t even my fault that Transponder technology existed. Officially, the Cascadia government owned all rights to the technology when it was developed, and they chose to release the technical specs into the field. I happened to be on the team that developed it, and yes I was the geek that put forward the technical design that became the framework for the UIT network, but I wasn&#8217;t any of the hundreds of people who recognized the need for identity confirmation that existed outside of physical constraints, allocated resources to solve the problem, hired my company as a research partner, and then pushed for results. I certainly wasn&#8217;t the millions of people who voted those politicians into office because of a facejacking operation that exposed three celebrities as criminals and put seven people in jail for conspiracy to commit murder. I was one person who happened to be at the right place at the right time to serve as a capstone on a much larger effort.</p>
<p>Getting in front of a camera at the Portland Techxpo and bragging about having made possible the Mark of the Beast&#8230; okay, yes, that was my fault. It certainly didn&#8217;t endear me to a bunch of religious psychotics like Brother William Washburn&#8217;s Purist Movement, but it was so hard to take them seriously. Their press releases read like half a dozen holy books and a double fistful of dollar bills with kook rants written on them passed through a Markov chain generator, and their policy statements showed they collectively had a creative&#8212;to be generous&#8212;understanding of both religious scripture and the scientific method. They had some two-dozen &#8220;official&#8221; factions, all split from the main group based on some minor nitpick involving just how many angels could dance on what sized pin, but on peeling back all the social niceties and hairsplitting, they were a bunch of people who&#8217;d decided that the best way to deal with the pace of technology was to ban anything that made them feel icky inside. They couldn&#8217;t get most of their members elected in either Tejas or the Confederacy because they were <em>too conservative</em>, and if that didn&#8217;t put them squarely beyond the realm of reason, nothing would.</p>
<p>I shut down the newsfeed and stared blankly at the terminal for about a minute, putting my thoughts in some semblance of order. Then I shook my head and punched in the callcode for my office. Three buzzes later, the speaker popped, heralding the audio pickup on the other side. &#8220;Identicorp Portland.&#8221;</p>
<p>I recognised the voice. Breathing a sigh of relief, I punched a request for video. &#8220;Trace, it&#8217;s Kolya.&#8221;</p>
<p>I counted off three seconds subvocally before Trace Morgan, my nominal vice-president and one of my closest friends, sent back a denial for my video request and a request for authentication. &#8220;Identify on secure channel, please.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;Oh, for the love of&#8230;&#8221; I bit my tongue, then chuckled at my response. The override circuit must be affecting me, I thought. The terminal was an Astra 320, not exactly cutting-edge but still equipped with a UIT transceiver as part of its stardard peripheral list. I put my hand over the receiver and waited for the thing to beep at me and tell me it had read my transponder. When it did, I spoke back into the terminal. &#8220;Authentification on its way. And send your own while you&#8217;re at it.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;Already in progress. Stand by.&#8221; I fidgeted in my chair while my terminal and his talked to each other, then the IIR database, finally transmitting a little message backing my claims to Trace. A request for video pickup came through on my end, which I quickly accepted. A few seconds later, a window on the terminal opened up, Trace&#8217;s muzzle staring out of it at me. He&#8217;d Transitioned shortly after I did, partially to help prove that the UIT could replace any conventional form of identification, partially to indulge himself. He looked like a labrat, a six-foot-two white rat, right down to the tip of his pink tail. His figure was still mostly human-proportioned, but the fur and skull<br />
were unmistakabily rodentine.</p>
<p>His black eyes blinked at the screen. &#8220;Kolya?&#8221; His voice registered surprise.</p>
<p>I grimaced. &#8220;Hi.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;You look&#8230;&#8221; He paused, not directly look into the pickup.</p>
<p>&#8220;The word is &#8216;bad&#8217;, Trace.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll go with that,&#8221; he agreed quickly, trying to fill the previous gap. &#8220;I heard the news. Sanford putting you back together alright?&#8221;</p>
<p>I made a face at the screen. &#8220;I itch.&#8221;</p>
<p>Trace chuckled, a high-pitched chitter that sounded like it should be coming from a cartoon chipmunk. &#8220;Just don&#8217;t gouge yourself this time.&#8221; I rolled my eyes at his comment. I&#8217;d had the override circuit installed at the same time as my first major Transition: leopard, with a heavy emphasis on the animal traits. When I woke up, of course I didn&#8217;t feel any pain because of the neural block, but I did itch from all the fur. I wasn&#8217;t used to my body and I&#8217;d forgotten about my claws, so I managed to carve four good-sized slices in my chest before the slick feel of blood on my pawpads made me hit the panic button. It took nearly twice as long to recover as it should have. Needless to say, most of the office found this hilarious.</p>
<p>I rolled my shoulders in a shrug. &#8220;Have I missed anything important?&#8221;</p>
<p>Trace gave a non-committal shrug. &#8220;We&#8217;ve had Confederacy officials on the phone off and on for the past nine days alternatively demanding to know if we want to press charges and meekly asking if you&#8217;re alive and wanting to know if-slash-when someone will be coming back. There&#8217;ve also been roughly half a dozen messages left, all in different synthesised voices, taking credit for your death and proclaiming you to be the first to fall. There&#8217;ve been over two-dozen additional calls we presume from the same sources, but they&#8217;ve been hang-ups, possibly automated. Tracking the calls led to public phone booths in Cascadia, Tejas and the Confederacy. All calls were purchased with anonymous cashcards. Cascadia police and Interpol have both been notified.&#8221; He paused a moment, looked around the edge of the pickup. &#8220;That seems to be everything.&#8221;</p>
<p>I nodded. &#8220;Sounds like the shop&#8217;s under control, then. I should be out of here in a week and on my way back to Atlanta in ten days.&#8221;</p>
<p>Trace stared into the video pickup, tapping his front teeth with a claw; it was a nervous gesture me made when he was thinking. Then he leaned back and shook his head once. &#8220;This place can run for a month without you in a pinch and the Confederates can wait. I&#8217;d suggest Transitioning. Something new and different.&#8221;</p>
<p>I raised an eyebrow. &#8220;Maybe I missed something somewhere. I thought we were out to prove to them that Transponders could defeat any conventional disguise tactic. Perhaps I&#8217;m mistaken somewhere?&#8221;</p>
<p>The rat clicked his tongue and let out a high-pitched squeaking sigh. &#8220;The Confederacy has assured me that no report of your survival has yet hit their news wire, and also that they found their security leak and have patched it. Going back in the same body you took last time is just going to tell the Purists to try harder next time. Thus, I think it&#8217;s a dangerous idea, but going in another form should be safer, especially if you take along a bodyguard.&#8221; The like-I-told-you-to-do-last-time was implicit.</p>
<p>I thought, scratched my ear&#8212;carefully&#8212;and finally shrugged in mock defeat. &#8220;Alright, you win. I Transition before I go back.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;And you take a bodyguard.&#8221; His pink eyes glittered with determination.</p>
<p>I sighed. &#8220;Alright, and I take a bodyguard. Call Dom and have her meet me here in a week; I should be coherent by then.&#8221;</p>
<p>Trace smirked, a feat I still found amazing giving his facial structure. &#8220;I already paged her; she should be there in the next half hour.&#8221;</p>
<p>I rolled my eyes. &#8220;You&#8217;re a real piece of work.&#8221;</p>
<p>Trace&#8217;s muzzle split a little further. &#8220;That&#8217;s what Sanford said when he finished with me. Now get back in bed; Dom will be there soon and you&#8217;ll need your strength to deal with her.&#8221;</p>
<p>I waved a hand dismissively, even though my vision was getting blurry. &#8220;Fine, fine. See you in a month, give or take.&#8221;</p>
<p>Trace waved a paw at the video pickup and then the window shut itself down, the speaker crackling once to signify the end of the conversation. I hauled myself off the terminal and just about fell over my own feet getting back into bed. I sighed, realising I&#8217;d pushed myself too far for my first day under my own power. From the comfort of the mattress, I requested some classical music and lay back, eyes open but unfocused. I lost track of the time staring at the rainbows flickering around the fluorescent lights in time to Holst and Dvorak. I cut back into reality, though, when the music cut out and a voice came through the terminal speakers. &#8220;Kolya?&#8221;</p>
<p>It was Sanford&#8217;s receptionist, Terry Moreno, one of the only people on the staff with more skill at rebuilding computers than organics. I tilted my head and called out towards the terminal, &#8220;Yes?&#8221;</p>
<p>I had trouble telling if the distortions in Terry&#8217;s voice were the result of the transmission medium or just the override circuit messing with my senses again. &#8220;You&#8217;ve got a visitor.. Dom Herschell?&#8221;</p>
<p>I sighed and struggled to sit up in bed, regretting it as soon as I was semi-vertical. &#8220;I&#8217;m awake. Send her in.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;On her way.&#8221; The music snapped back to life, picking up where it had been interrupted.</p>
<p>I canned the playback and waited. Around a minute later, the door opened and Dominique Herschell strolled into the room. She wore a tan fitted jumpsuit, far too crisp for it to have seen any real use. She was clearly between jobs; she&#8217;d obviously recently shaved her head, and the black tribal tribal tattoos on her head stood out sharply against her brown skin. She kicked the door shut with the heel of one foot, detoured by the terminal to grab the chair and dragged it over next to the bed. Rather than say anything, though, she just spun it around backward and sat facing me, her arms folded over the back.</p>
<p>I held her gaze for all of about thirty seconds before sighing. &#8220;What?&#8221;</p>
<p>Dom smirked. &#8220;I was just thinking of all the times you told me you didn&#8217;t like my line of work. Now Trace calls me and says you want to hire me. I&#8217;m just enjoying the moment.&#8221;</p>
<p>I snorted. &#8220;I still don&#8217;t like your line of work. Gun-for-hire never struck me as a career with good retirement options.&#8221;</p>
<p>Her smirk slipped into a playfully mocking sneer. &#8220;I&#8217;m a courier, not a mercenary. My combat training is for self-defense and the protection of valuables, which occasionally means people like you. And with that kind of crack, maybe I won&#8217;t take your job.&#8221;</p>
<p>It was my turn to grin. &#8220;Yes you will. You&#8217;ll have time to rub my nose in it all the way to the Confederacy and back.&#8221;</p>
<p>Dom gave me a look somewhere between incredulous and patronizing, then pulled a piece of gum out of one of her many pockets. &#8220;Confederacy?&#8221; She popped the stick in her mouth and chewed thoughtfully.</p>
<p>I sighed. &#8220;Yes, Confederacy. Okay, jokes aside, Dom. You&#8217;re the best person I know for this sort of business and one of the only ones I can probably trust to tag along. I got shot the last time I went and I have a vested interest in seeing that that doesn&#8217;t happen again. I&#8217;m a thinker, not a fighter. I had skywired senses and I still took three shotgun slugs from someone I should&#8217;ve seen five miles away.&#8221; I paused and shrugged, ignoring the discomfort from my right shoulderblade. &#8220;I need your help.&#8221;</p>
<p>I ran out of steam there and left the silence hanging while Dom blew bubbles. After a minute or so of consideration, she snapped her gum and nodded. &#8220;Alright. Two ground rules.&#8221;</p>
<p><em>Time to negotiate.</em> &#8220;Number one?&#8221;</p>
<p>She held up a finger. &#8220;If the bullets start flying, I get hazard pay.&#8221;</p>
<p>I sighed but didn&#8217;t bother arguing that one. &#8220;Done. Number two?&#8221;</p>
<p>She grinned and raised a second. &#8220;If I say &#8216;duck&#8217;, you duck. When I say it, not after asking me why.&#8221;</p>
<p>I rolled my eyes. &#8220;Contrary to Trace&#8217;s claims, I am not the most inquisitive person on the planet and I do not have a problem with authority figures.&#8221;</p>
<p>She only snapped another bubble in response. When I said nothing further, she shrugged and stood, walking towards the door. &#8220;I&#8217;ll get the travel details from Trace. When do we leave?&#8221;</p>
<p>That reminded me. &#8220;Five weeks.&#8221;</p>
<p>Dom gave me that look again from the doorway. &#8220;Any reason for the delay?&#8221;</p>
<p>I nodded. &#8220;Trace wants me to Transition before I go. Bring a pocket scanner with you to the tube station.&#8221;</p>
<p>She grinned; I could just make out the wad of gum between her teeth. &#8220;What&#8217;re you going to be?&#8221;</p>
<p>I shrugged again, this time wincing at my shoulder. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. I&#8217;ll have something figured out by the time Sanford starts cutting. Trace suggested &#8216;new and different&#8217; so it&#8217;ll probably be anthropomorphic.&#8221;</p>
<p>Dom paused, one hand on the doorjamb. &#8220;Try female.&#8221;</p>
<p>I snickered. &#8220;That&#8217;d certainly be new and different.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;It&#8217;ll also be something the Purists won&#8217;t consider,&#8221; she said pointedly, tapping a finger on the frame.</p>
<p>My eyes narrowed. &#8220;You read the news?&#8221;</p>
<p>Dom&#8217;s grin broadened. &#8220;I didn&#8217;t have to.&#8221;</p>
<p>I raised an eyebrow in puzzlement. &#8220;I don&#8217;t get it.&#8221;</p>
<p>A look of consternation passed over Dominique&#8217;s face, then she sighed. &#8220;Trace said he&#8217;d have my head if I told you, but he had me follow you from a discreet distance on your last trip. I couldn&#8217;t get to you in time to keep you from getting shot, but I did get you evacked back to Angeles. Trace covered the slingshot fare and I paid Medifast to keep your lungs attached to your neck while Sanford prepped an emergency suite for your arrival.&#8221; She grinned, leaning against the doorway. &#8220;Doc complained about their stitchwork.&#8221;</p>
<p>I sat, shocked, for what may very well have been the first time in my life. I honestly didn&#8217;t know whether to be angry or pleased that my ex-girlfriend and my best friend for the past twenty years had simultaneously conspired behind my back and saved my hide. I slumped against the head of the bed and looked back into Dom&#8217;s eyes. &#8220;Thanks.&#8221;</p>
<p>She brightened somewhat, a ghost of her smirk echoing on her face. &#8220;See you in five weeks. Try not to be late.&#8221; Then she exited the door while I slid back down into bed and let the Beethoven swell as I tried to decide on my next face.
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		<title>Lateral Promotion</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 04 Dec 2009 16:00:56 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kristina Tracer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<strong>NSFW:</strong> <a href="http://nail.prismaticmedia.com/stories/lateral-promotion/">Allen Ritchie has to work for his promotion.</a>

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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Allen Ritchie boredly thumbed through one of the magazines that had been sitting on the glass end table next to the sofa, but the words and pictures within were a blur. He wasn&#8217;t even sure which one he&#8217;d gotten; it was the first on the stack, something to occupy his paws and eyes while he waited for the secretary to tell him Ms. Harrington was ready to see him. He knew from years of practice that he looked composed, maybe even slightly eager, as if looking forward to the meeting. His deep blue eyes, framed in a sea of well-groomed white fur spotted irregularly with patches of coal-black, sat open slightly wider than normal, while he kept his ears as perked as he could, giving him an air of anticipation.  </p>
<p>Underneath his freshly-pressed shirt and the rest of his calm exterior, though, the Dalmatian was struggling not to tremble, rehearsing in his mind what he would say to his boss when she called him into the room. He&#8217;d been the one to ask for the meeting, something already out of the ordinary.  Usually she was the one to summon her minions, most often to rub their noses in some mistake she&#8217;d found in their work. Arianna Harrington had exacting standards of her staff, and they were expected to meet them, if they didn&#8217;t want to find themselves looking for work.</p>
<p>He&#8217;d never been dragged into her office before, so he felt safe there, but it was what went unsaid from the above that really made him nervous. Harrington and Associates could demand such precision and talent from its staff because it was one of the top design companies in the city, if not the country, and it paid very well to ensure it got the best. Getting an offer was proof of talent. Keeping it was something else entirely. Allen had kept his job for four years now by throwing himself one-hundred percent into his work, and so far it had handsomely rewarded him.</p>
<p>This, however, was the moment of truth. In all his time at the company, he&#8217;d never raised a complaint when his annual raise showed only the cost of living increase, and while the money was good, he knew he was worth more. Just the fact that he&#8217;d lasted as long as he had under a slave-driver like Arianna Harrington for four years would be worth gold to any number of other graphics houses, and he could practically name his salary. Before he went anywhere else, though, he wanted to see if he couldn&#8217;t get his boss to acknowledge that fact.  </p>
<p>Now he only had to survive the meeting.</p>
<p>The phone on the secretary&#8217;s desk buzzed suddenly in the office, startling him out of his reverie, his head popping up from the magazine. The raucous sound carried for a few seconds, then snapped back to silence, followed by a voice, distorted slightly by the staticky speaker. &#8220;Send in my two-o&#8217;clock, Linda.&#8221;</p>
<p>The secretary, a bright-eyed beagle with a professionally-groomed coat of tans and browns, pressed a small button on the phone with a freshly-filed clawtip and leaned forward slightly in her chair. &#8220;Yes, Ms. Harrington.&#8221; She then sat back upright and turned to Allen, nodding once.  &#8220;Ms. Harrington will see you now,&#8221; She motioned toward the heavy wooden door leading from the antechamber to the inner lair, where the principle partner of Harrington and Associates sat waiting.</p>
<p>Allen rose, his mask of calm still intact&#8212;he hoped&#8212;and tossed the unread magazine casually back onto the stack covering the glass end-table next to the couch. He nodded back to Linda and walked towards the entrance to Ms.  Harrington&#8217;s office, his paw resting a moment on the brass letters that spelled out his boss&#8217; name. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Linda press some button on her desk, and a small chime somewhere rang merrily, a lock unlatching with an audible thunk. Thus invited, Allen swallowed heavily and pushed the door open carefully, stepping into Ms. Harrington&#8217;s office.  </p>
<p>The office itself sat on the outside corner of the building, and smoke-tinted windows overlooking the city dominated made up two of the walls, providing him with a panoramic view of the downtown district. An overstuffed black leather sofa and a matching chair clustered around a glass-topped coffee table near the corner between the windows. His hindpaws sank into the thick cadet blue shag as he stepped within, his eyes drawn to the cityscape.</p>
<p>&#8220;May I help you?&#8221; The voice, from behind and to his left, caught Allen off-guard, and he jerked around to face the speaker. Against the left wall, the one not covered in glass, sat a deep cherry desk, atop which rested a computer monitor, two paper-trays, a number of pens, a black leather business folder, and a phone. Two high-backed leather chairs sat in front of it, obviously intended for guests of far more prominence than most of Ms. Harrington&#8217;s humble staff. Obviously whoever had laid out the office not only wanted the primary occupant to have the best view in the room, but also intended to keep out of sight when anyone entered, giving the element of surprise to the occupant.</p>
<p>Even more startling than the voice, though, was the sight that greeted Allen when he turned his head. Behind her desk sat a well-groomed vixen, her forest-green eyes fixed on him, the corners of her muzzle and her ears perked in a half-smile. She sat upright in a high-backed, black leather executive chair, leaning with her elbows against the desk, her muzzle resting lightly on her steepled forepaws. Her blouse was obviously silk, a deep green that matched her eyes and emphasized the sheen of the russet fur surrounding them.  At her throat was a silver necklace, set with emeralds that sparkled out from against the white fur of her neck. She held her thickly-furred tail high, currently free of the slot at the back of her chair, the tip tied with a dark green satin ribbon that matched her top. </p>
<p>The vixen&#8217;s smile deepened when Allen&#8217;s eyes met hers, and he got the distinct impression of looking into the eyes of a predator, one who&#8217;d been sizing him up from the minute he walked through her office door. Before he could recover gracefully, though, she sat back slightly in her chair, motioning towards one of the chairs in front of her. &#8220;Mister Ritchie? Please, take a seat.&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen gave his best interview smile and pulled back the chair after a moment&#8217;s fumbling; the guest seats were heavier than they looked. &#8220;I do appreciate you taking time out of your day to see me, Ms. Harrington.&#8221; </p>
<p>&#8220;Please,&#8221; she cooed with disarming ease. &#8220;Call me Arianna. I took the time before you arrived to review your history with the company. Four years is an impressive lifespan at Harrington and Associates.&#8221; Her ears flicked bemusedly, apparently aware of her own morbid joke. &#8220;You do excellent work, if I say so myself.&#8221; </p>
<p>Allen&#8217;s ears grew warm, and he knew they had to be reddening from the unexpected praise. &#8220;I&#8217;m glad that you&#8217;re pleased with the quality of my performance. Actually,&#8221; he added quickly, &#8220;that&#8217;s why I&#8217;m here.&#8221; </p>
<p>&#8220;Oh?&#8221; Arianna&#8217;s eyes didn&#8217;t register the response projected in her voice, locked on his intently. &#8220;Do tell.&#8221;</p>
<p>It took the Dalmatian several seconds to find his tongue again, all the composure he had carefully rehearsed in the antechamber evaporating under the scrutinizing stare of his manager. &#8220;I came to ask for a raise,&#8221; he finally managed to say into the oppressive void.  </p>
<p>Arianna&#8217;s expression didn&#8217;t change a bit from before his statement to after, but she did shift in her seat, her paws steepled in front of her muzzle, elbows balanced on the arms of her chair. &#8220;Do you believe that Harrington and Associates made a poor offer to you when you accepted your position? Do you think the annual increases were out of line with the cost of living?&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen shook his head quickly, hoping to avoid insulting his boss. &#8220;Not at all. Far from it, actually.&#8221; </p>
<p>Arianna&#8217;s smile broadened, her eyes narrowing. &#8220;Then why ask for a raise?&#8221; </p>
<p>In two quick ripostes, she had talked him into a corner. &#8220;Because&#8230;.&#8221; Her gaze never wavered, her eyes holding his captive, the smug smile fixed on her muzzle. He took a deep breath through his muzzle and took his chance.  &#8220;Frankly, I know I&#8217;m worth more than that.&#8221;</p>
<p>His manager leaned forward, her elbows again resting on her desk, her arms folded now in front of her. &#8220;What makes you say that?&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen smiled nervously himself. She hadn&#8217;t kicked him out of her office yet, so he must be doing something right. Either that or she was taking her time, playing with him before delivering the killing blow to his career. &#8220;The salary you offered me was in line with my skills of four years ago. I&#8217;ve gotten better since then, both in skill and in presentation. You yourself admitted that four years at Harrington and Associates is a long time for someone to survive under your standards. I&#8217;ve met and exceeded them consistently. With that kind of credential, I could name my price at any other shop.&#8221;</p>
<p>Arianna&#8217;s eyes opened wide in mock-surprise, the smug grin still fixed to her muzzle. &#8220;Is your loyalty to Harrington and Associates so low that you would just walk out the door like that, Mister Ritchie?&#8221;</p>
<p>The Dalmatian&#8217;s chest froze, his eartips cold. His tail tried suddenly to retreat between his legs, catching on the seat of the chair. He&#8217;d meant it as an honest evaluation of his abilities, but he&#8217;d pushed himself over the line. The threat of quitting was on the table, though, and now he had to cover for it. &#8220;No, I&#8217;d rather stay,&#8221; he said earnestly, trying to project as much regret as he could. &#8220;I really would. I just know that if I offered my skills somewhere else, they&#8217;d offer me a salary based on what I&#8217;m worth now, not what I was worth four years ago.&#8221;</p>
<p>Arianna nodded, leaning back into the cool leather of her seatback. &#8220;Just how much would you like to stay? Suppose I said no. Would you be ready to walk out of that door, past the receptionist, and right out the front door, only to return for your last check and your personal effects?&#8221;</p>
<p>The fact that her voice never wavered from its even temperament made Allen sit very still in his seat, the chill in his ears spreading down to his muzzle.  His tail tried to crawl down between his legs, but the construction of his seat prevented it. He&#8217;d blown his chance, and he knew it. He&#8217;d pushed his luck too far. &#8220;I would really rather not have to do that, if I can avoid it. I just&#8230; I think I&#8217;m worth more than you&#8217;re paying me, and I think you know it too.&#8221;</p>
<p>The vixen chuckled quietly to herself. &#8220;Oh, I believe I know exactly what you&#8217;re worth, Mr. Ritchie, but let&#8217;s find out? I&#8217;ll make you the following deal.&#8221; She stopped, glanced towards her office door, then stabbed the speaker button on the phone. &#8220;Linda, would you please go down to the break room and bring Mister Ritchie and myself some fresh coffee, thanks,&#8221; she said quickly into the unit, releasing the button without waiting for a reply. Then she lifted her head back to Allen&#8217;s, her smile taking on a definite predatory tone.  &#8220;You&#8217;ve got about ten minutes. If you can make me climax before she gets back, you&#8217;ve got your raise. If not&#8230; maybe you&#8217;ll be able to get it from one of our competitors.&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen&#8217;s eyes went wide, even moreso than normal. &#8220;You can&#8217;t be serious!&#8221; he shouted hoarsely. &#8220;This is harassment!&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s your word against mine, Mister Ritchie,&#8221; Arianna cooed, obviously enjoying the situation. &#8220;You came asking for a raise, I told you no, you stormed out of the building, and then made up this story about sexual harassment to try to get back the job you quit. You&#8217;d better hurry; if the coffee&#8217;s already made, you&#8217;ve got less time than you think.&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen rose indignantly, knocking his chair backwards. His paws balled into fists, and for a brief moment he considered doing just as she said, storming out of the office and calling the police, when he realized just what a bind he really was in. At this point, he&#8217;d become just another throw-away employee, one more victim of Arianna Harrington&#8217;s exacting standards. It really was his word against hers, and she had history on her side. Any leverage he had when he&#8217;d entered was gone now. When Linda returned with his coffee, his job was gone.</p>
<p>Unless&#8230; no, she couldn&#8217;t be serious, he thought. His cock, though, throbbed once in anticipation, the situation appealing to his baser instincts even as his brain rejected it as absurd. He looked down at her, staring smugly back up from her seat with a knowing grin. As he watched, she parted her muzzle and let the tip of her tongue run over her lips, and he felt his body responding. She really was attractive, the cut of her blouse emphasizing and showing off her cleavage without exposing anything, and with her chair pushed away from the desk he could see the black skirt she wore, covering just enough of her thighs to follow the convention of modesty. Even in the midst of his turmoil, a part of his mind wondered what lay just out of sight.</p>
<p>Arianna was hot, she knew it, and she knew he knew it too.  </p>
<p>Allen walked quickly around to stand in front of her, his paws at his neck, slipping his tie from around his throat, letting it drop to the floor.  His eyes never left hers while he unbuttoned the collar of his shirt, then knelt, the solid cherry desk blocking his view of the front door to her office. His knees sank into the thick carpeting, and he leaned forward, his paws resting on Arianna&#8217;s knees, her deep red fur warm against his pads.  Slowly he slid them along her thighs, ruffling the fur against the grain, still watching her for some sign of disapproval or hesitation, but her look offered only amusement and her own obvious arousal at the situation.</p>
<p>&#8220;You&#8217;d better hurry, Mister Ritchie,&#8221; the vixen said huskily, her voice low. &#8220;You&#8217;re already down a minute.&#8221;</p>
<p>The Dalmatian&#8217;s fingers slid beneath the edge of the skirt, riding it up against her legs, slowly exposing more of her well-toned legs, then the white shimmer of satin panties. He pressed his muzzle against them, burying himself in her scent, his own cock twitching in its sheath as he engrossed himself in her arousal. He parted his jaws, his tongue darting out to lick over the sheer fabric, tasting her musk, dampening the material that covered her sex.  </p>
<p>Arianna&#8217;s paws clenched against the armrests of her chair, her muzzle half-open in an expression of eager anticipation, breathing heavily now as Allen nuzzled into her crotch. Her juices started to soak the satin as well as her saliva, her scent deepening, thickening as he caressed her through the delicate fabric. A soft whine escape her as she lifted herself briefly, letting the skirt gather behind her, beneath her tail, allowing her to expose more of herself to his questing muzzle.</p>
<p>Allen&#8217;s tongue poked into the fabric, denting it as he explored her cleft through the satin, learning the flavor of her musk, savoring the tastes of her arousal as he encouraged her, licking hungrily against the white satin. His paws slid up to her waist, clawtips hooking into the waistband of her panties and sliding them down, exposing her sex. The fur there was white, short and already darkened and slick from her juices and his licking. Her labia were already a bit swollen from arousal, parted slightly to expose the tender inner lips, the entrance to her tunnel visible just behind them.</p>
<p>He let the panties drop around her ankles and put his paws back on her knees, parting them firmly, forcing Arianna to slide forward on her chair to open herself up to him. He pressed his muzzle into her snatch, tongue caressing her outer lips, then darting between them to tease the inner ones, coaxing a series of moans out of her as he licked her. Her fingers moved from the arms of the chair to the back of his head, holding him against her crotch.</p>
<p>Arianna panted, her eyes closed now, muzzle open as she panted, each touch of his tongue to her netherlips bringing a fresh gasp out of her as he lapped at her, exploring her sex. She felt him press himself further between her legs, and then she squealed as he curled his tongue up into her tunnel, fucking her with his muzzle, thrusting that wet organ over and over into her. She shuddered, tensing against him, gripping the fur on the back of his head tightly as she neared her release.</p>
<p>Allen withdrew from her canal slowly, his tongue slipping free of its gentle grip, but then he drew it up between her lips without breaking contact with the skin, her moan shifting into a high-pitched keen. His paws moved between her legs now, fingerpads to either side of her netherlips, gently pulling them apart, exposing her swollen pearl, the hood withdrawn to bare her nubbin. He caressed it with his tongue, sending another shiver through her body, her fingers moving from just holding his head to cupping his ears, guiding him to her secret spot, urging him onwards, and he obeyed, tongue slowly swirling around her clit and then dragging slowly across it, teasing her sensitive flesh, pushing her towards climax.</p>
<p>Arianna began to shake, biting her lip now as Allen lapped directly at her button, her body quivering beneath his touch. She tensed, tailtip quivering, her body nearing the release she demanded, her breath coming in short, heaving gasps. Her black claws entwined into the short white fur on the back of Allen&#8217;s head as he drove her onwards, nearing the point of inevitability. She inhaled sharply, eyes closed, so close to release. His tongue lapped eagerly at her clit, caressing it directly, and she responded, her body tightening and then suddenly spasming as she climaxed, crying out from the strength of her orgasm. Her body shook, spasms running through it as she rode out the wave of her release, grinding herself against Allen&#8217;s muzzle.</p>
<p>Allen continued to lick at her nubbin until the last aftershocks passed from her body, then pulled himself away from her, her grip on his head gone slack in her release. The fur of his muzzle was soaked in her juices, and he licked at himself, savoring her taste. He withdrew from her crotch, rising from the floor after retrieving his tie. &#8220;So, do I keep my job?&#8221; he asked with a smirk of his own.</p>
<p>Arianna nodded weakly, then motioned towards the far end of the room.  &#8220;Washroom, on this wall.&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen nodded and walked to the far side of the office, noticing the door set flush with the wall near the panoramic window. Inside was a small bathroom complete with shower and sink, decorated in the same cadet blue as the office beyond, trimmed in silver. He looked at himself in the mirror, then set about scrubbing the traces of his sins from his fur. He gave a quick blowdry to his wet fur, then retied his tie and checked himself again with a grimace. The scent of her sex still lingered in his nostrils, and everyone he passed would probably suspect what he&#8217;d been doing, but at least didn&#8217;t quite look the part now.</p>
<p>When he came back, Arianna was sitting at her desk, chatting happily away with her secretary, three mugs of coffee on a cafeteria tray nearby. Her secretary was occupying one of the chairs across from her, taking notes. The vixen looked over at him and motioned him over with a grin, a genuinely friendly smile. &#8220;Allen! Please, have a seat. I was just discussing your promotion with Linda, working out the details to have her pass them to HR.&#8221;</p>
<p>Allen&#8217;s ears shot upwards, his eyes going wide again. &#8220;Promotion?&#8221;</p>
<p>Arianna nodded, a hint of her mischevious smirk crossing her muzzle. &#8220;As we discussed? Personal project lead. I need someone who from time to time can handle special assignments from me that I just can&#8217;t trust to someone of lesser standards and skill, and I think you&#8217;ve amply demonstrated your ability to handle the position in your time here.&#8221; She winked when she finished her statement, her ears flicking in amusement.</p>
<p>Allen laughed. &#8220;I think I can handle the job. I&#8217;m flattered that you&#8217;d trust me with such a high-profile position.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;Oh, believe me, you&#8217;ve earned it.&#8221; Arianna responded as Allen made a grab for his coffee. &#8220;I think you&#8217;ve got quite a future ahead of you at Harrington and Associates.&#8221;
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		<title>Five Years and Change</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 24 Jun 2009 04:55:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kristina Tracer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[With the cooler running at full bore, my office was almost livable. The patch of desk closest to the window was hot to the touch, and Uluru shimmered in the distance outside, but I could actually sit still as long as I kept the air vents aimed directly at my chair. Even with that, though, [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';">With the cooler running at full bore, my office was almost livable. The patch of desk closest to the window was hot to the touch, and Uluru shimmered in the distance outside, but I could actually sit still as long as I kept the air vents aimed directly at my chair. Even with that, though, my white cotton shirt clung damply to my back, trapped between me and the cloth seatback. I shifted forward and tugged irritably at the cloth with one hand, scrolling listlessly through pages of document with the other.</p>
<p>The fabric peeled away from my skin, then clammily fell back into place. With a scowl, I slumped back against the chair to block the chill. I bounced a finger on the keyboard until I was back on the front page, gazing nonplussed at the scanned image that stared back at me from the monitor. Large black eyes gazed back up from the flat screen, surrounded by a field of short grey fur. The face was long, ending in a triangular black nosepad and streaked with white to each side. Rising from the back of the head were two long narrow ears, the insides lined in pale pink skin. The expression on the face suggested a smile, but it seemed like the features just wouldn&#8217;t permit it.</p>
<p>I pressed my lips against my teeth, glancing from the screen to the other side of the desk, comparing the image in the doc with its owner. In person, the eyes shone, lids blinking rapidly against the dust in the air. The muzzle was longer than the picture hinted, hanging half-open and panting shallowly. Beads of sweat collected in the folds of the leathery black nosepad, and more glistened on the insides of the ears, making them twitch, flinging drops of salty water against the wall. At intervals, a narrow arm rose, bringing short claws to scratch at the weave of the dark green short-sleeved jumpsuit or wipe sweat from leathery pawpads onto heavily muscled thighs. Broad three-toed feet tapped occasionally against the floor, intersperced with irregular thumping from a thick tail.</p>
<p>In the cramped office space and the heat, the kangaroo&#8217;s musk permeated the air. It wasn&#8217;t nearly as unpleasant as I&#8217;d expected it to be, but it was unfamiliar, like everything else about him. Uplifts were uncommon enough even up in Alice; out here they were alien. I sniffed, twitching my nose, and he responded by ducking his head, ears flattening against his skull.</p>
<p>I leaned forward again, grimacing as the cool air raised gooseflesh on my back beneath the sodden shirt. I let a half-grin slip onto my face, showing a touch of tooth. &#8220;Scorcher, innit?&#8221;</p>
<p>The kangaroo hesitated a moment, then nodded, closing his muzzle and swallowing dryly. Everything about him screamed discomfort, from the way he picked at his clothes to the sweat he was obviously trying to ignore. At least his eyes met mine when I turned away from the monitor, following my gaze as I studied him. Despite my expression, he did his best to smile at me, but he didn&#8217;t fare as well as his photograph.</p>
<p>&#8220;So&#8230;.&#8221; I said slowly, letting my voice trail into nothingness. My eyes flicked to the monitor again, tapping on my keyboard. &#8220;Mr. Maloneâ€”&#8221;</p>
<p>The kangaroo winced and held up a paw. &#8220;It&#8217;s not really, any more. Please, just call me Ashley.&#8221;</p>
<p>I stared coolly across the desk at my interviewee, holding the roo&#8217;s eyes with mine until he started to shrink back in his chair, returning his paw to his lap. After several uncomfortable seconds, he looked away, glancing out the window, squinting into the sunlight. &#8220;Sorry for interrupting,&#8221; he murmured.</p>
<p>I nodded once, more to myself than to him, the smile spreading slightly on my face. &#8220;Ashley, is it, then?&#8221;</p>
<p>He nodded again, still avoiding my gaze.</p>
<p>I shifted again, leaning back into the stream of cool air. &#8220;Gotta say, your C.V. doesn&#8217;t say much about you.&#8221; I stretched out an arm and tapped the screen with a finger for emphasis. &#8220;Looks a bit bodgy, you ask me. A release order and a doxy cert&#8217;s hardly a career path.&#8221;</p>
<p>His head ducked further, his fingers tensing in his lap. His tailtip hit the floor heavily, followed by both feet. &#8220;I&#8217;m&#8230; fairly young.&#8221;</p>
<p>I furrowed my brow. &#8220;The Mars loop&#8217;s no place for tyroes,&#8221; I said, letting a bit of a sneer into my voice. &#8220;Two years out, two back, and at least one in orbit. The pay&#8217;s great but there&#8217;s nowhere to spend it. This&#8217;ll be my fifth run and the third for most of the rest of my crew. What makes you think we need a jillie along for the ride?&#8221;</p>
<p>With each sentence, the roo&#8217;s muscles bunched up further under his coverall, until his claws dug into his pads. He blinked, then wiped at one eye with the back of a paw. &#8220;I thoughtâ€”&#8221; He caught himself, then looked at me, trying again to smile. &#8220;Well, I&#8217;ve heard the stories of Chelsea Tauber and how she got startedâ€”&#8221;</p>
<p>At the use of my name, I jerked out of my chair, fists slamming against my desk to punctuate my anger. &#8220;You think this is some kind of bloody pleasure cruise?&#8221; I drew in a harsh breath and narrowed my eyes. &#8220;Get out of my office,&#8221; I hissed with as little inflection as I could manage.</p>
<p>Ashley cowered in his chair, bringing up his paws to shield himself from the outburst. His ears visibly wilted, his eyes downcast. He pushed himself out of his chair, straightening his jumpsuit as he stood. His muzzle stayed aimed down towards the floor as he shuffled his way past overstuffed boxes to the door. He stood there on the brink, one paw on the handle, panting shallowly. He squeezed his eyes shut and wiped at them, his whole body trembling.</p>
<p>I stood straight and folded my arms across my chest. &#8220;Well?&#8221; The word was higher-pitched than I wanted, but my blood was still boiling.</p>
<p>He inhaled deeply, the air rattling in his lungs. He coughed and turned back towards me, but his muzzle stayed down, his eyes still closed. &#8220;Can&#8230; can I speak frankly?&#8221;</p>
<p>I wanted to blurt out a refusal, but I caught myself. He seemed so pathetic in that moment, like I&#8217;d just kicked his puppy. I shrugged and dropped back into my chair, pressing my back into the seatback to block the chill. &#8220;Floor&#8217;s yours.&#8221;</p>
<p>Ashley nodded, tensing as though he were preparing for a punch to the gut. &#8220;I&#8217;m a top-line Biogenix companion breed,&#8221; he said hotly, voice quivering. &#8220;The family that had me decanted wanted a servant and&#8230; playmate&#8230; for their daughter. She&#8217;d seen Uplifts in a magazine and thought we were aces.&#8221; He paused, swallowing hard again. &#8220;The certification was part of my speed-tapes.&#8221;</p>
<p>He drew in a breath to steady himself, then lifted his head and opened his eyes, but his gaze remained steadfastly on the door in front of him, his fingers clutching the handle in a vicegrip. &#8220;She&#8230; got tired of me after two years. Her parents were furious, there was a fight, but&#8230; in the end I had to go. They granted me freedom, some clothes, a bit of spare change, but&#8230;.&#8221; His words stopped there, cut off by a shrug.</p>
<p>The roo wiped at his eyes again with his free paw, then finally turned to face me. &#8220;I tried a shelter, but who had room for one of us when there were so many real people needing help?&#8221; He paused, blinking back tears. He cleared his throat noisily, then sniffed. &#8220;Sorry. Anyway, the labor board had nothing for me. I had enough money to share a flat with someone for a while, but it only lasted so long. In the end it was either begging or being a prostie, or&#8230;.&#8221;</p>
<p>He stuck a paw into one of the pockets of his dark green coverall and pulled out a folded sheet of paper. The corners were ratty, the creases bright and edged with grime from repeated handling. He unfolded it reverently and passed it to me. Dominating the top half of the page was a picture of Mars overlaid with the words READY FOR A CHANGE? The company logo sat in the bottom right corner, my contact information in the bottom left.</p>
<p>I looked up at him, and this time he met my gaze with his own, his eyes wet but hard. &#8220;Everyone&#8217;s heard about Chelsea Tauber. Alkie father, dead mother, crawled out of back of beyond and went on to captain her own freighter. I figured&#8230; I mean, I guessed how you had to have gotten your start, and I thought&#8230;&#8221; He stopped again, his gaze softening, his ears going flat against his head. &#8220;All I&#8217;m asking for is a chance. I don&#8217;t mind&#8230; earning my keep, if that&#8217;s what it takes. I justâ€”&#8221; He spotted the grimace on my face and stopped himself. &#8220;I&#8217;m sorry.&#8221;</p>
<p>My eyes dropped back down to the lovingly creased flyer in my lap. The colors were faded and the paper was worn thin where the folds met. One corner had a tear from a long-lost staple. My fingers brushed the printed surface carefully. &#8220;This is no easy trip, not for what you&#8217;re asking.&#8221; I tried to put ice in my voice, but the heat of the room made it tough. &#8220;My crew&#8217;s a good bunch, but five-plus years is a long time, and I&#8217;ve got blokes who won&#8217;t care you&#8217;re funny-shaped after a few months.&#8221;</p>
<p>He half-shrugged at that. &#8220;I said I&#8217;ll do what it takes as long as I can learn a real trade while I&#8217;m out there. That&#8217;s really what I want out of this.&#8221;</p>
<p>I nodded at that, his words sounding uncannily familiar. Was it really that long ago that I&#8217;d made the same offer? I studied Ashley again, letting my eyes wander over him. His irises weren&#8217;t black, but midnight blue. When he relaxed, his long ears stood up straight overhead, combining with his long neck to make him look even taller. The white streaks in his fur added years to his features, but his overall build was very boyish, lanky and lean.</p>
<p>When he spotted the scrutiny, he ducked, his ears flicking back against his head, and I chuckled dryly. &#8220;Where ya from?&#8221; I asked, trying to set him back at ease.</p>
<p>He shrugged. &#8220;I was decanted in Canberra, but my famâ€”my flat was in Hobart.&#8221;</p>
<p>My eyes widened at the confession. &#8220;How&#8217;d you get all the way out here from Tazzie?&#8221;</p>
<p>The question made him tense, and he turned back towards the door. &#8220;Not by begging.&#8221;</p>
<p>His answer shouldn&#8217;t have startled me, but it did, jarring me with its dissonant familiarity. &#8220;I made the trip out of Laverton, myself,&#8221; I replied before I&#8217;d really considered it. I moved to stand, and the flyer fell out of my lap to the floor. Hastily, I squatted to grab it, then gingerly offered it back to him.</p>
<p>Ashley took the fragile piece of paper, his fingers touching mine for a moment; his pawpads were soft and leathery, slightly slick with sweat. He delicately folded the flyer again and then stuffed it back into his pocket. &#8220;I&#8217;m willing to learn,&#8221; he said, his voice as even as he could make it. &#8220;Legally, I&#8217;m nineteen, and I&#8217;ve passed my finishing exams.&#8221; He looked at me, pleading with his eyes. &#8220;I&#8217;ll do whatever it takes to get this. I&#8217;m&#8230; I&#8217;m out of options otherwise.&#8221;</p>
<p>I nodded, then turned back to my screen. His photograph tried to smile at me, and the corners of my mouth turned upwards in response. &#8220;I&#8217;ve got a lot of forms for you to fill out, so you&#8217;d better get started.&#8221; I brought up the normal hire documents on my screen, then stepped out from behind my desk and motioned to my chair. &#8220;Take a seat here while I grab us some tea. It&#8217;s hot-as in here and I don&#8217;t want you passing out in the middle.&#8221;</p>
<p>He hesitated a moment, and then his ears perked as my words registered. He nodded, and we did a quick dance, squeezing past each other in the cramped quarters. My hand brushed his forearm as we manoeuvred; his fur was short and soft, and the sensation sparked thoughts of how it might feel elsewhere. As I stepped to the door, he dropped heavily into my chair, taking a moment to bask in the wash of cold air before throwing himself into the application.</span>
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		<title>The Testament of Bernard Ramsey</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 23 Sep 2008 19:27:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kristina Tracer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[The following is offered as testimony by one Bernard Ramsey, currently on trial for the murder of Jameson Walden and the disappearance of his son, Seth. Mr. Ramsey dictated the following to an officer of the courts on the twenty-seventh of January, nineteen-hundred-twelve. My name is Bernard Ramsey, and I am not insane. I know [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:small;">The following is offered as testimony by one Bernard Ramsey, currently on trial for the murder of Jameson Walden and the disappearance of his son, Seth. Mr. Ramsey dictated the following to an officer of the courts on the twenty-seventh of January, nineteen-hundred-twelve.</span></i><br />
<hr /><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">My name is Bernard Ramsey, and I am not insane.</p>
<p>I know what I saw on the twenty-fourth of January, in the Year of Our Lord nineteen-hundred-twelve. I know the cause for the disappearance of both Seth Walden and his father. I beg of you, all who hear this, heed my warning and listen well.</p>
<p>I first made the acquaintence of Seth Walden in Nineteen-hundred-seven. His father was a banker of some regard in New York. His mother, I knew, had Indian blood within her. I can only assume that it was this connection to the savage that allowed for what I witnessed to occur, but I shall explain that presently. We met at university, attending the same biology lecture. At the time, I had been studying to be a physican. Walden had always been something of a misanthrope; he always appeared more interested in animals than in people, and I knew he disapproved of his father&#8217;s profession. I had always assumed that he was studying at university to become a veterinarian; his apparent gift with animals made him, in my opnion, a natural choice for such a position.</p>
<p>Our relationship grew slowly; Seth was never much for building human acquaintances. I believe that his interest in me was always based in my fascination with the human form. I know that he considered most of our fellow students imbeciles, and made no hesitation about decrying them as such during our lectures. Needless to say, Seth was not well liked by either the professor or his classmates, but after one of his more lucid tirades against the ignobility of mankind I saught to discover the root of his general contempt for his fellow men.</p>
<p>After lecture one evening, I chanced to follow him some distance from the university. He spoke not a word to me, nor did he look at me until we were several hundred yards from the classroom. Then suddenly, he turned upon me with a frightful visage and demanded to know why I had the audacity to follow him! His totally unexpected demand drew the wind from my sails and I stammered for a moment, attempting to regain my wits. When finally I spoke, I could only come up with, &#8220;to try to understand what makes you hate the rest of our class so much, and Professor Carmichael besides.&#8221;</p>
<p>He threw back his head and laughed; it was not a pleasant sound. &#8220;Hate? Hate implies focus. I care not one way or another about them. I despise them; they&#8217;re human, and they have the gall to believe themselves above the rest of the animals.&#8221;</p>
<p>By this statement, I was perplexed, and I remarked as such to him. His only answer was a bitter sigh and a shake of his head. He said two or three times that I could never understand, and asked me to take my leave of him. I agreed, not wishing to further distress Seth. My entire walk home, I pondered his statements. I could only assume that he meant he believed himself to be other than human, but that obviously made no sense to me.</p>
<p>This experience I repeated on several occasions over the span of the lecture series. Though the pattern to his answers varied, they all revolved around the theme of believing himself, or perhaps even being different from the rest of the students, including myself. I never truly understood why. Finally, after our final examinations, I stopped him early on our walk home and confronted him with this.</p>
<p>His response stands out in my mind, for it seemed at the time to have naught to do with my question. &#8220;Man is just one more animal upon this earth, Bernard. Yet you of European stock live as if you were somehow above the rest of creation. You don&#8217;t understand what it means to be one with the world, in the way my mother&#8217;s family does.&#8221;</p>
<p>I was exceedingly puzzled by this. &#8220;But does it not say in the Bible that mankind was created to be shepherds over the animals? We are clearly of a different order of creation, are we not?&#8221;</p>
<p>Seth gave me a pained look. &#8220;Oh, please, Bernard,&#8221; he said. &#8220;Are you as blind as poor Professor Carmichael? We are one with the land, and the animals. No better, no worse. Merely different. My father might agree with you, but my mother and her family has quite another explanation for our existence. One that entails a oneness with the land, not stewardship over it.&#8221;</p>
<p>From here, the details of our conversation are lost to me, but I remember clearly that we stood there on that corner and talked for a great length of time. I learned much of his heritage that night. His father&#8217;s family had long associated with so-called &#8220;robber barons&#8221; such as Andrew Carnegie. While I had always considered him to be a philanthropist, from Seth I heard a different side of the story, of a man used to exploiting the land on which he worked, acting against nature, not in accordance with it. I learned of Seth&#8217;s growing dissatisfaction with his father&#8217;s lifestyle and with mankind in general. His study of biology and zoology was an attempt to find some niche within modern life with which he could feel comfortable. An attempt, I should add, that ended with his suspension from university because of professorial complaints.</p>
<p>At this point, gentlemen, I wish to point out that I lost track of Seth Walden for close to five years. I knew that his mother had died of natural causes, and that he had gone to her family in disobedience of his father&#8217;s wishes. I was never truly close to Seth Walden, though I dare say I knew him better than most humans ever will. Where he went in those five years, I can not say. I do not know, nor do I wish to know. I hope only that one day, I may forget what I witnessed the night of January the twenty-fourth.</p>
<p>During the next five years, I did observe with some degree of curiosity the goings-on of the Walden family. While I never heard anything of Seth himself, I know that his father rose to prominence in the New England banking community. Rumours of scandals involving conflicts with what the government had labelled Indian holdings circulated, but they either stopped or were silenced. Which, I cannot say, though I have my suspicions.</p>
<p>Then, a week ago, I received a telegraph from Seth Walden, requesting my presence at his home on a matter of utmost urgency. While I had begun my practice, I felt it important to answer his request. I believe that I was the closest thing he had to a friend within the wholly human community. Yes, gentlemen, that is what I said. If you would but let me finish, I hope that you too will understand the horror I witnessed.</p>
<p>When I arrived at Seth Walden&#8217;s address, I must admit to some degree of apprehension. I knew not where he had been in the last five years. He greeted me at the door, and I was met with an odd odor, one that I thought I should know but could not place. He smiled at me and bade me enter, which I accepted. He offered me a small snifter of brandy which I also took, and we began to talk of minor pleasantries. I felt very odd, after five years to be talking so calmly with a man that, in our youth, had been so full of passion and life.</p>
<p>I asked him what was so urgent, and he brushed aside the comment at first, but then finally said that he had found a way to solve his moral dilemmas involving his family but that he would need some assistence. I looked at him askance and inquired into the nature of this assistence. He looked at the clock, then out the window. He said that he presumed enough time had passed, and set his snifter on the mantel. Then he bade me follow him down into the cellar of his house. Curious and a little loosened from the strong brandy, I followed.</p>
<p>The cellar of his house was dark but lit with a few torches that provided enough illumination to see. What met my eyes horrified me, and yet I could not tear my eyes away from the scene. On the floor, spreadeagled, was the nude form of Jameson Walden, Seth&#8217;s father. His hands and feet were tied and bound to stakes that had been driven into the ground. His eyes were wild, and when he saw me he began to shout, or at least to attempt to do so. He had been gagged and his mouth tied with thick rope, preventing all but the slightest of noises to escape. I turned to look for Seth, to ask what in God&#8217;s name he intended to do, but of my host I saw no sign.</p>
<p>The next few moments, gentlemen, are hazy. I remember running down the stairs to attend to the elder Walden, and then a hand upon my shoulder throwing me back against the wall, much stronger than any man should have right to be. I looked up and saw Seth, also now quite nude, framed in the torchlight. He smiled.. oh, God, gentlemen, his smile was that of a feral animal, not of any sane man. In a voice quite unlike his own, he said that the time had come for him to sever his ties to the world of men and return to the land whence he came.</p>
<p>With that pronouncement, he turned to his father still on the ground and kicked him soundly in the ribs. I heard a soft crack and the old man&#8217;s screams increased, though still quite muffled by the gag. I knew that if I did nothing, Seth would most likely kill his father. However, gentlemen, if you have ever seen a madman in the flesh, you would do little to impede his progress either. Time and again, I saw Seth&#8217;s foot rise and fall into his father, shattering ribs and crushing the man&#8217;s breastbone. I called on God several times to end this nightmare, but to no avail.</p>
<p>After a good dozen kicks, Seth knelt down next to his father, now crying and gasping for breath. I heard Seth chanting in some unknown tongue, one of the Indian dialects, I can only presume. He picked up a knife from beside the form of his father, and then with one swift stroke plunged it into the man&#8217;s chest. Jameson&#8217;s cries silenced as he went into shock. Blood fountained, coating the two men in blood. Seth seemed to bathe in this crimson font as he drew the knife down through his father&#8217;s chest, his chanting never ceasing.</p>
<p>Seth finally set aside the now-bloody knife and reached into the man&#8217;s chest. Placing his other hand onto the man&#8217;s shoulder, I saw a quick jerking motion, heard a soft rip and then Seth held within his hands his father&#8217;s still-beating heart. Finally stopping his chant, Seth raised the bloody tissue to his lips and began to eat, partaking of this demonic feast.</p>
<p>Here, gentlemen, no doubt you will begin to question my sanity. As if all that I have said to date were not enough, it at least is backed by your physical evidence. The knife, the mutilated corpse of Jameson Walden, all found in the cellar. What follows, however, can not be explained by any medical or forensic test.</p>
<p>As Seth Walden continued to feast upon his father&#8217;s heart, ripped fresh from the dying man&#8217;s chest, his features began to flow like melting wax. The colour of his skin changed from pink to a light grey. A thick white fur began to sprout, covering his entire body. I saw his face twist and distort in the torchlight, lengthening into an almost feline muzzle. The tips of his fingers stretched, claws growing forth from them to replace the nails that receded. The thing that was Seth Walden opened its&#8230; muzzle, I presume, and I saw a row of sharp, needle-like teeth, which it used to calmly finish devouring Jameson&#8217;s heart. Throughout all of this, the beast made no sound, save soft mewling noises which I can only presume stem from the pain it must&#8217;ve felt in its transformation.</p>
<p>When this hellspawn finished with the heart, it turned and tore several large pieces of flesh from the still-warm corpse and ate with gusto. I stared at this&#8230; this thing of unbridled savagery as it ate the human flesh of its once-father. Then, sated, it turned to me with Seth Walden&#8217;s eyes, and it smiled again.. Oh God, kind sirs! That smile&#8230; to look into the face of pure ferocity and unhindered savagery. Without warning, it let out a high-pitched keening wail that shook the house to its very foundations. Then, without further sound, it ran up the stairs and vanished from my sight.</p>
<p>There, gentlemen, is my testimony. I admit that I was found in the basement of Seth Walden&#8217;s home, with the bound corpse of his father. But I did not kill him, nor do I know there whereabouts of his son. For my sake, gentlemen, and your own, I would suggest that you do not attempt to find him.</span><br /></span></span>
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		<title>Trial</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 12 Sep 2008 04:10:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kristina Tracer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I know that, to every appearance, I killed Michelle Andrews in cold blood. My fingerprints are on her purse, my dandruff on her dress. Forty people witnessed me whispering to her in the middle of a crowded restaurant not fifteen minutes before she dropped dead of a heart attack. She was registered as a Passive-2, [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I know that, to every appearance, I killed Michelle Andrews in cold blood. My fingerprints are on her purse, my dandruff on her dress. Forty people witnessed me whispering to her in the middle of a crowded restaurant not fifteen minutes before she dropped dead of a heart attack. She was registered as a Passive-2, vulnerable to any assault from someone above an Active-3, which I surpass easily. My dinner companions described my mood later to you as &#8220;brooding, nervous and cold&#8221;. The police found me with blood dripping from both ears in the men&#8217;s room of the restaurant, vomiting up my chicken cordon bleu and the betterÂ part of the lining of my small intestine. None of these statements are lies, nor are they the complete truth. Jurors, Monitors, Judge Sallenger, let this be, in my own words, my chance to defend myself.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Before I can discuss the killing of Michelle Andrews, I must first mention the person of Lyle Ashley Lyonson. I never met this individual face to face, and for this fact, I must say I am horribly glad. Lyonson was a killer of rare breeding, not only Active, of some rating I can&#8217;t say I even begin to know, but a man of selective tastes. His victims were Active females, typically going through puberty, the newer toÂ their power the better. He preferred to hunt his game before it could run away or fight back.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Lyonson was the cohort of a man named Trevor Thomas, a powerful if uninspired P-4 whose primary amusement seemed to be the vicarious enjoyment of the suffering of others, and Lyonson kept him well supplied inÂ exchange for various services including getaway driver, sexual partner and confidant. Trevor Thomas was sentenced to twenty years in prison six and a half years ago, but I will now contend that the man actually sent to prison was Lyonson, at least briefly.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I know, everyone, that my tale sounds tangled and confused. I promise you that, by the end, all will become explained. The Monitor has not yet detected instability, nor deception, have you? Granting, of course, that were I rated high enough, I could simply change your opinions on the matter, but I digress. May I continue?</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">The true start to this twisted road is seven years prior, when my youngest sister Hazel died. She was twelve at the time, a late bloomer. I must apologize now to the members of the jury and the audience who are not at least P-1; this I trust will either be explained or has already been covered in some part in preparation for this trial. Hazel&#8217;s death rattle was more than enough to disturb the better part of the household, driving my mother into a maze in her own mind from which I doubt she will ever emerge, and leaving burned in my mind both a distinctive aura of mocking glee and the image of a man&#8217;s face.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">My sister&#8217;s death was labelled a homicide, and images gleaned from my mother&#8217;s mind, matched to the description I gave to the police during the investigation, pointed the finger at Lyonson. Prior to my sister, he had chosen his victims with more caution, or else Lyonson had been lucky, selecting targets in families comprised mostly of P-0s, unable to send or receive any sort of mental link. His poor luck, perhaps.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Lyle Ashley Lyonson was recorded dead six months later, shot in the head by his once partner-in-crime, Trevor Thomas, likely for the reward money. This fact I cannot dispute. His body was cremated, the ashesÂ scattered as per his will, for whatever the last words of a dead killer are worth. Does anyone else find it strange that Lyonson, a highly-rated Active, could not prevent his own death at the hands of a mid-ranked Passive? Lyonson was presumed asleep at the time of the shooting, but his body posture was rigid, his fingers gripped tightly to the arm of the couch in which he&#8217;d been &#8220;sleeping&#8221;. However ludicrous itÂ may sound, from the coroner&#8217;s report, and what little I&#8217;ve been able to determine myself that Lyle Lyonson was, at the time of his own recorded death, fully aware of Thomas&#8217;s actions and a willing participantÂ in them.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">For his part in Lyonson&#8217;s crimes, Thomas was sent to the Masterson Institute of North Dakota to serve out his sentence. Masterson is, of course, a high-security prison with an impeccable track record, and Thomas is reportedly still there today. However, one of the people not still there is Michael Brewer, a nineteen-year-old P-3, arrested for assault and armed robbery. He was eight years into a ten-year prison sentence when Thomas would have arrived, and as both participants of violent crimes they would have been in the same wing of the Institute. Brewer&#8217;s performance within the institute, questionable for most of his stay, improved remarkably as the last year of his sentence approached, and he was considered reformed by his release date, while Thomas slipped into docility, following orders but showing little initiative.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Michael Brewer was not a rich man, and his family had not taken kindly to his ranking and disowned him, a fact that likely led to his arrest in some roundabout fashion. Hoewver, he was not without friends when he left. A support group for low-ranked Passives had formed at Arcadia Univeristy not two years ago, and eighteen-year-old Michelle Andrews</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8212;</span><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">and now we begin to close the circle</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8212;</span><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">was in her freshman year atÂ Arcadia, one grade below mine. Several people at the college found Brewer, working on the campus maintenence staff, and Andrews talking together often, and Andrews&#8217; diaries describe Brewer as &#8220;charming, kindÂ of cute and incredibly understanding&#8221;.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Lyonson was, probably at first, an Active well surpassing not only my own unnatural abilities but those of the scale itself. However, recently transferring into a new host had taxed his reserves. For those ofÂ you who have not followed this tale, let me now spell it out in full: I contend that Lyonson survived his own death in the mind of Trevor Thomas, later projecting himself into first Brewer and then Andrews,Â looking for a safe mind unconnected to his former life in which he could recover his strength and again continue his hobby of ripping the budding minds of young Actives from their skulls as they first took notice of the minds around them. I knew Andrews from the social club at Arcadia University, and that night at the restaurant she had about her the same aura I remembered from seven years ago. I pushed into herÂ mind while she was in the bathroom, and I saw Lyonson&#8217;s eyes smirking back at himself in the women&#8217;s room. It was at that point that I went to the restrooms, grabbed her shoulder as she exited, forced myselfÂ as deeply into her mind as I could and proceeded to scatter every neural pathway I could find before staggering into the men&#8217;s room and collapsing in a stall, leaving her corpse in front of the door.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">The Monitor has not stopped me, and so at the very least I must believe what I&#8217;ve told you, even if it isn&#8217;t true. Did I kill Andrews? If you mean did I stop her life-process, then yes. If you mean was it Andrews in control of the body I killed, then no, the person whose life I ended died seven years ago.</span></span></div>
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		<title>Expectations</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 12 Sep 2008 03:40:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kristina Tracer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I hate conventions. If you&#8217;ve ever gone to one, you&#8217;ll understand exactly what I mean. I&#8217;m notÂ real to them. I don&#8217;t exist. Well, I do, and that&#8217;s why I&#8217;m there. TheyÂ all want to see me, touch me, assure themselves that I&#8217;m some physicalÂ thing, but that&#8217;s the point at which my interest for them fades. I&#8217;m [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I hate conventions.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">If you&#8217;ve ever gone to one, you&#8217;ll understand exactly what I mean. I&#8217;m notÂ </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">real </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">to them. I don&#8217;t exist. Well, I do, and that&#8217;s why I&#8217;m there. TheyÂ all want to see me, touch me, assure themselves that I&#8217;m some physicalÂ thing, but that&#8217;s the point at which my interest for them fades. I&#8217;m not aÂ person in their eyes. I&#8217;m a fantasy made flesh. I&#8217;m a celebrity, of a sort,Â and that&#8217;s what they want. They want the embodiment of their dreams.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I knew my arrival at the hotel would be noticed and propogated to theÂ crowd milling in the dealers&#8217; room, the video room, and the rest of theÂ fan-infested areas, so I didn&#8217;t bother dropping into them. I&#8217;d have beenÂ crushed in the wave of well-wishers that wanted a lock of fur or somethingÂ if I had, anyway. When I signed my name at the desk, I waved over theÂ clerk and spelt out, in rapid ASL, if he could please do me the &#8220;courtesy&#8221;Â of informing someone in charge of scheduling that I had arrived and was inÂ room 319, but that I wanted to lie down for a while? He nodded and saidÂ he would, and I slung my duffel over my shoulder and made my way up toÂ the room, key gripped tightly between my fingers.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Three-nineteen was an executive suite, as befitting my status as the guestÂ of honor for the umpteenth year running. My presence alone generatedÂ who-only-knew how much revenue for the convention and the hotel itself.Â At just under three thousand of us world-wide, we were still pressworthy,Â though the news media had grown bored with us after a few years of livingÂ in the limelight. They&#8217;d probably want to do a ten-year reunion in the nearÂ future. I wondered sardonically if they&#8217;d want Albert in the group photo,Â humping someone&#8217;s leg wearing a straitjacket.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">The bed was king-sized, made with a thick comforter and soft pillows, aÂ small piece of chocolate resting on the pillow. I snickered and threw itÂ in the trash; telling them that it was poisonous would have them scuttlingÂ about in a frenzy of apology and asskissing, but they meant it in the bestÂ of intentions. The road to hell, I thought.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I lay back on the bed, duffel tossed across the clothing rack, and closedÂ my eyes, ticking off the seconds internally, waiting for the inevitable. ItÂ didn&#8217;t take long. Four minutes, twenty-two seconds after starting the count,Â I heard the telltale rap of knuckles against my door. I rose and padded toÂ the hall, tail flicking, peeking out the security port. Male, human,Â probably early twenties. Glasses, short-cropped spiky dark hair, a wisp ofÂ stubble on his chin and cheeks. I sniffed, but the only thing I smelled was a hint of soapÂ and fresh sweat from the California heat, a pleasant shock to my nose.Â I stood upright and, tail held high, unfastened the chain on the door andÂ pulled it open, cocking my head to one side in the universal gesture ofÂ inquiry.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;Hey.&#8221; He was wearing a black shirt with a stylized wolf&#8217;s head on theÂ shoulder and a pair of khaki bermuda shorts, with sandals over his socks,Â all of it apparently freshly laundered according to my nose. His voice wasÂ low, but still shaking a bit. I could hear his heartrate jump when I openedÂ the door, and the scent of his sweat changed, taking on a metallic tinge.Â Nervous, I knew, and I fought back the urge to sigh openly.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Instead, I waved him into the room, trying to smile charmingly and thenÂ turning and walking back to the bed, my tail flicking back and forth behindÂ me, reaching behind me to crook my finger at him. When I looked at the doorÂ from my perch on the bed, though, he was still standing in the doorway withÂ a puzzled look on his face, his nervousness gone to confusion.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I cocked my head to one side and smiled, tilting my head forward to giveÂ him the big brown eyes; I knew they loved that. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Why&#8217;re you still overÂ there?</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Â I signed rapidly, still in ASL, ears and tail raised.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He raised his arms, and it actually took me a moment to realize he wasÂ signing back, in clumsy furlan, </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I want talk?</span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Since he started it, I switched to furlan myself; it was a lot easier thanÂ American with three fingers. I could do it with two, if I were hoofed; it&#8217;dÂ been designed for use among furries, after all. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Of course you do. YouÂ could talk from here just as easily, right?</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Â I patted the bed for emphasis.Â I could already feel my insides churning and tried to force it back intoÂ its box. Four hours and already I was feeling nervous and edgy. AnotherÂ and I&#8217;d be crawling the walls.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He shrugged, a gesture that meant the same in every language, and walkedÂ over to the bed. As he sat down, I scooted over and rested my paw on hisÂ knee. He stiffened and jerked back. &#8220;Hey!&#8221; he said aloud, returning to</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">English.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I withdrew the paw and inclined my head backwards, baring my throat for aÂ moment, the furlan shortcut apology. A show, I guessed. Some of them justÂ want to see me, but don&#8217;t want to be involved. Probably he&#8217;s got a mateÂ already and doesn&#8217;t want to feel like he&#8217;s cheating on zim. &#8220;What did youÂ want to discuss?&#8221; my paws asked as he settled back onto the bed.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Want meet Todd Messner,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Â he replied in his awkward gestures; he probablyÂ only barely knew it, but it was endearing so I didn&#8217;t say anything. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">WantÂ talk court case, most of all.</span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Just talk?</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"> My paws fluttered a bit, then rested on the bed as I leanedÂ over them, gazing into his eyes, hoping he would just hurry up and let meÂ know what he wanted so we could get around all the foreplay.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He looked surprised again. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">What else?</span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Hard to get. I sighed internally but had gotten too good at the game toÂ let it show. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Oh, you know&#8230; a little of this&#8230; a little of that&#8230;</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"> IÂ traced one claw around on the bed, my tail slowly swaying behind me, stillÂ studying his eyes while the fingers on my other paw spelled rapidly whatÂ I wanted to say. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">All you have to do is ask.</span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">At that, he looked genuinely startled. &#8220;Say what?&#8221; He had slipped backÂ into English.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Oh, don&#8217;t be so coy.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Â I signed, perhaps a bit testily, my fingers jerking.Â </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I know why you&#8217;re here; it&#8217;s not like it&#8217;s any real secret&#8230;.</span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;You sick fuck, is that all you&#8217;re here for?&#8221; His words shocked me intoÂ dead rigidity, even as he rose off the bed and stormed towards the hall.Â &#8221;Christ, there&#8217;re some sick people here and you&#8217;re one of&#8217;em!&#8221; The doorÂ slid open on silent hinges and caught itself after he slammed it, whisperingÂ shut with a hiss of escaping air.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">The insistent demand of my loins eventually broke through the numbed shockÂ of my unnamed guest&#8217;s departure and I ripped off my clothes, grabbing forÂ myself. Fortunately, someone else was along presently who was more thanÂ willing to help me satisfy my needs. We danced between the sheets, then,Â each of us using the other for our own benefit, a beneficial exchange toÂ all involved.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I made the rounds of the dealer&#8217;s room at 18h00 as I was scheduled in myÂ appearance contract, and afterwards I served as a model for several localÂ artists, the pictures from which would be sold to help pay for the conÂ itself, the artwork to be signed by both artist and myself. The whole time,Â though, my mind kept hauling itself back to his outburst. His outburst. IÂ didn&#8217;t even know his name.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Why did it bother me so much? I found holding the pose difficult, even thoughÂ I was supposed to be relaxed. In truth, I was tense, irritated over whatÂ should&#8217;ve been a passing issue. I was here because I needed it and theyÂ wanted it. It&#8217;s not my fault he misunderstood that. I tried telling myselfÂ that, but I couldn&#8217;t make the words ring true, even in my own head. By theÂ end of the session, my paws were sweaty and I was fighting not to pant, evenÂ as my body was telling me it was time for another fix. The suggestion of aÂ nude modelling session with one of the artists, and some quick research intoÂ vulpine anatomy solved that problem, but it left me with an even biggerÂ nagging doubt.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I couldn&#8217;t to sleep a wink, just tossing and turning in bed. The sheetsÂ seemed starched to cardboard and the comforter irritated my fur. Curling upÂ on the carpet was worse. In the end I gave up and went roaming the hallways,Â not really sure what I hoped to find but knowing it wasn&#8217;t in my hotel room.Â A few people asked me if I was alright, that I was up really late, but forÂ the most part they were just so glad to see me and have my attention forÂ fifteen seconds that a plastic smile and a few pat gestures got me past theÂ need to interact.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I found him sitting in the all-night restaurant attached to the hotel aroundÂ two in the morning. He wasn&#8217;t with anyone, just sitting alone, watching theÂ news on the television over the counter, sipping coffee and picking his wayÂ through a plate of eggs and ham. He looked up as I entered and rose but IÂ held out a paw to him, looking at him, trying to give him the big eyesÂ without overdoing it.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He stood out of his chair and dug in his pocket for a moment, then sighedÂ and dropped back into it heavily, looking back down at his plate. IgnoringÂ the obvious turn of heads, I walked over and pulled out another chair atÂ his table. When my tail was through the back and I was almost comfortable,Â he said, &#8220;First you think I want to fuck you and now you think I want toÂ talk to you,&#8221; punctuating his words with a jab at his plate.Â </span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I froze again and some part of my mind rose up in indignation at beingÂ addressed like that. I stuffed that part of my mind back down and bared myÂ throat to him, holding my head back, my eyes looking up at the ceiling.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He shook his head and looked down at his plate. &#8220;Stop it already, youÂ look like somebody just kicked you.&#8221;</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I lowered my muzzle to gaze at him, and I lifted my paws to start talking,Â but suddenly I had no idea what to say. I sat there, waiting for the wordsÂ to come to me. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">You wanted to talk aboutâ€”</span></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;Hey, hey, slow down,&#8221; He snapped, then sighed. &#8220;I&#8217;m sorry, your paws areÂ shaking and my furlan&#8217;s not that good.&#8221;</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I sighed and nodded once, another universal motion, then pulled out aÂ palmtop and scribbled on it for a moment, passing it to him to read. WOULDÂ THIS WORK BETTER?</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;Yeah, sorry.&#8221; He nodded. &#8220;About earlier, too. I&#8230; I lost my cool back there.&#8221;</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I shook my head, writing fast. THE FAULT WAS MINE. Seeing the words onÂ the screen, I had to admit their reality. I THOUGHT THAT WAS WHY YOU WEREÂ THERE.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;Shit,&#8221; was his only reply for several seconds. &#8220;You must get hit on a lotÂ here.&#8221;</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I shrugged. IT SERVES A NEED. WHY WERE YOU THERE, IF NOT FOR THAT?</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He read the screen, then looked up at me. &#8220;I wanted to talk about theÂ court case. I was a poli-sci major in college, wanted to be a lawyer butÂ didn&#8217;t pass the pre-law exams. I&#8217;m doing grad work right now, and IÂ thought your court case would be a great basis for a thesis. I tried toÂ email you but all I had was your public address.&#8221;</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">WHY DIDN&#8217;T YOU WRITE ME?</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He shrugged, picking at his congealing eggs with his fork. A waitress cameÂ by and filled his coffee, then asked if I wanted something to eat. I lookedÂ up at her and shook my head; either she was oblivious to who I was, or sheÂ <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia; "><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">didn&#8217;t care. Either way, I was grateful. She wandered off and he continued.Â &#8221;I didn&#8217;t figure you read that address; it was the one on your site, so IÂ thought it probably just dumped to some lawyer or secretary for scrutiny,Â so I didn&#8217;t bother. I knew you worked the con circuit.&#8221; He smirked darkly.Â &#8221;I didn&#8217;t know you </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">worked</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"> the con circuit. I was&#8230; I dunno. I had thisÂ vision of a statesman, of a young revolutionary fighting for freedom. IÂ wasn&#8217;t expecting a gigolo.&#8221; He spit the words, mocking us both.</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I sighed, my ears drooping. MAY I EXPLAIN? I THINK I CAN SATISFY BOTH YOURÂ INTERESTS AT ONCE.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I passed him the pad and waited for him to read, trying not to look hopeful.Â I couldn&#8217;t believe what I was doing, and yet his words had so badly burnedÂ me that I found myself wanting to unburden. It seemed almost religious,Â confessing my sins to a stranger.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He looked up from the PDA and shrugged, passing it back to me. &#8220;Whatever.&#8221;</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">PLEASE. FINISH YOUR BREAKFAST; THIS WILL TAKE SOME TIME. I held out theÂ screen so he could see it, waited for his nod, and than began writing,Â scrawling the loops and whorls of the palmtop&#8217;s native recognitionÂ software.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">WHEN UPLIFTING BECAME A REALITY, THE SCIENTISTS WENT CRAZY, OVERGROWNÂ KIDS WITH THE BIGGEST TOYBOX IN THE WORLD. WE WERE CREATED, AT FIRST, WITHÂ EVERYTHING THEY COULD WANT. INTELLIGENCE, WIT, CHARM, LIBIDO. WE WERE THEIRÂ FANTASY PLAYMATES COME TO LIFE. WE WERE WHAT THEY WOULD BE IF THEY COULD BEÂ US. THEY WERE PROBABLY IN THE FANDOM.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">THEY STARTED OUT MAKING US DEPENDENT ON SEX. THEY WIRED OUR NERVOUS SYSTEMSÂ TO REQUIRE SEXUAL STIMULUS ON A REGULAR BASIS, ENGINEERED PHEROMONES INTOÂ OUR SWEAT, BUILT US SMART, AS CLEVER AS THEY COULD, GAVE US PERFECT BODIES.Â THEY TANK-RAISED US TO SIXTEEN IN TWO YEARS, CRAMMING US FULL OF THEIRÂ IDEA OF WHAT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE. I CONTACTED A LAWYER WHEN I LEARNED WEÂ HAD BEEN BUILT TO NEED SEX TO FUNCTION NORMALLY. THEY TRIED TO ENGINEER AÂ RACE OF SEX SLAVES.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I paused, tapping the pen against the side of the case. WE LEFT MESSNER WHENÂ WE REALIZED WE HAD THE FREEDOM TO DO SO, AND WE TRIED EVERYTHING WE COULD TOÂ CURE OURSELVES. DRUGS, MEDITATION, COUNSELLING, EVEN SURGERY. NOTHING WORKS.Â ALBERT, ANOTHER MEMBER OF BATCH ONE, CASTRATED HIMSELF HOPING IT WOULD GOÂ AWAY WITHOUT THE STIMULUS. HE&#8217;S IN THE CLARK INSTITUTE NOW. I closed my eyes,Â remembering. Albert had been even more harder hit than I had; his eyes lookedÂ haunted when he wasn&#8217;t in the throes of passion, and his days had been spentÂ masturbating or looking for partners when he wasn&#8217;t eating or sleeping. InÂ the end, he&#8217;d taken a knife to himself and called 911. They fixed his body,Â but they could never fix his mind. The last time I went to visit him in theÂ ward, there was nothing left of him, just a crazed wolfman grinding himselfÂ against the wall, the floor, anything that moved. They&#8217;d declawed him afterÂ the second time he&#8217;d tried to kill himself. They would&#8217;ve been more humaneÂ if they&#8217;d shot him.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I resumed writing while he ate. AFTER SIXTEEN MONTHS, TWO SURGICAL OPINIONSÂ AND TONS OF GOVERNMENT MONEY SPENT ON FAILURE, WE SUED OUR CREATORS. IT WASÂ MY IDEA, SO MY NAME WAS THE ONE ON THE SUIT. IN CREATING US THE WAY THEY HAD,Â THEY HAD DELIBERATELY CRIPPLED US. MESSNER DIDN&#8217;T SEE IT THAT WAY, BUT THEÂ COURTS DID. BATCH TWO WAS TOO LATE TO SAVE OR ABORT, SO THEY CAME OUT ASÂ DAMAGED AS WE WERE, BUT THE HIGH COURT AND LATER THE U.N. PUT DOWNÂ RESTRICTIONS ON THE DEGREE OF ALTERATION TOLERABLE BY LAW. THEY ALSO RULEDÂ THAT WE WERE FUNCTIONALLY DISABLED AND DUE COMPENSATION FROM MESSNER FORÂ BEING UNABLE TO WORK. THEY HARDLY NOTICED THE PAYOUT, BUT IT WAS THE THOUGHTÂ THAT MATTERED.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I hesitated a moment, chewing on the back of the stylus, then finished theÂ thoughts, explaining the rest. I HAVE TO HAVE SEX ABOUT FOUR TIMESÂ A DAY OR I SUFFER. My ears grew hot as I wrote, holding the equipment withÂ slick paws. THE FANDOM PROVIDES THAT. THEY DON&#8217;T WANT ME; THEY WANT MY BODY.Â I NEED THE CONTACT. I HATE IT BUT IT&#8217;S BETTER THAN NOTHING. YOU&#8217;D THINK I&#8217;DÂ GET TIRED OF THE SEX. I DON&#8217;T, AND THAT&#8217;S THE WORST PART OF ALL.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I put the stylus away into the palmtop and passed it over, drumming my clawsÂ against the tabletop, listening to the soft rhythmic clicks while he read myÂ impromptu essay. &#8220;Jesus,&#8221; he muttered, looking up at me. &#8220;Is this for real?&#8221;</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I nodded and he continued reading. &#8220;So that&#8217;s why you thought&#8230; shit.&#8221;</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I nodded again, my ears perking a bit. At least he understood.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;Jesus,&#8221; he repeated, shaking his head. &#8220;Why not just fuck each other?Â If you all need it that badly&#8230;?&#8221;</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">I sighed and nodded. WE TRIED, I wrote slowly, trying to ignore the painÂ in my paw from too much writing. IT FELT LIKE INCEST TO ME, OR LIKE I WASÂ AN INVALID, UNABLE TO GO ANYWHERE. SOME OF US DID THAT, ACTUALLY. I TRIED,Â BUT I COULDN&#8217;T. I WISH I HAD. I set down the pad and passed it across toÂ him, massaging one paw with the other.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He winced. &#8220;Ouch. I&#8217;m sorry, man. I didn&#8217;t know.&#8221;</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">It&#8217;s alright,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"> I signed slowly, not wanting to write any more. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">You didn&#8217;tÂ know. And&#8230; I&#8217;m sorry too. I&#8217;m so used to</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal; "><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">â€”</span></span></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He held out his hand. &#8220;No, I read it. I understand.&#8221; He stood up, droppingÂ his fork. &#8220;C&#8217;mere.&#8221; And he held out his arms to me.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">In all the encounters I&#8217;d had, male and female alike, I&#8217;d been asked toÂ hug people before, but it never felt like this. I had always been theÂ object of affection, literally. I was the receptacle for someone else&#8217;sÂ fantasies. This time, his arms carried not desire, not lust, not evenÂ envy or childlike innocence, but genuine tenderness and concern. IÂ sunk gratefully into his arms, resting my cheek on his shoulder. MyÂ cock stirred, briefly, then subsided.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">An eternity of moments later, I stepped back and smiled. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Thank you,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Â I flashed with my fingers.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">&#8220;Thank you,&#8221; he returned the gesture. &#8220;You gave me my thesis topic.&#8221; TheÂ corner of his mouth turned up in a smirk.</span></span></div>
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<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">At that, I laughed, a short repetitive bark that did turn heads at theÂ counter. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Is there anything else I can offer you?</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Â I signed. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Oh!</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"> IÂ grabbed a napkin, dug a pen from my pocket and wrote my email addressÂ on it. &#8220;The real one,&#8221; I wrote below, and passed it to him.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">He snickered; it was the same as the one he had. &#8220;Thanks again. Nah, IÂ should sleep. Alone.&#8221; He dug some bills out of his pocket and dumped themÂ on the table, then waved. &#8220;I&#8217;ll see you, Todd.&#8221; He smiled and waved to theÂ counterclerks on his way out of the restaurant.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">As I stood there, it occured to me that I still didn&#8217;t know his name.Â I wondered if I would see him again around my schedule.</span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:medium;">Maybe at the next convention.</span></span></div>
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		<title>Wapani</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 12 Sep 2008 01:14:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kristina Tracer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Naka pushed back the leather flap guarding the entrance her hut in hopes ofÂ greeting the sun, but only snow and the faintly acrid scent of long-dead fires met her in return. She lowered her eyes to the ground and shook herÂ head; she knew, even without asking the winds or the trees, that the huntsÂ had gone [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span class="Apple-style-span"  style="font-size:10pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Naka pushed back the leather flap guarding the entrance her hut in hopes ofÂ greeting the sun, but only snow and the faintly acrid scent of long-dead fires met her in return. She lowered her eyes to the ground and shook herÂ head; she knew, even without asking the winds or the trees, that the huntsÂ had gone badly; there was no food to be found, not with such a heavy winterÂ sitting over the land.</p>
<p>Her feet fell woodenly against the ground, leaving holes in the driftsÂ as she crossed the clearing to the elders&#8217; cabin. Light flurries swirledÂ around her, leaving a dusting of white in her near-black hair, giving herÂ the grizzled look of one twice her age. More crystals clung to her fursÂ as a wind whipped between the trees, becoming lost and wandering haphazardlyÂ between the trees and low houses that the tribe called home. Her hand fellÂ three times against the heavy wooden doorjamb, but her fingers felt nothing,Â still stiff and numb from cold.</p>
<p>With a rough scrape, the tanned hide slid aside from the entrance, revealingÂ Telikai&#8217;s leathered face. His eyes matched the clouds, grey and brooding,Â as if at any minute hail and sleet could fall from them and run in riversÂ down the channels of his aged face. At the sight of his Speaker, though,Â they lit up like pools reflecting the sun for a brief moment.</p>
<p>&#8220;Hail, Naka, Speaker of the Wild,&#8221; he said in his rough-hewn voice, noddingÂ to her, breaking eye contact as a sign of respect; to gaze into another&#8217;sÂ eyes while bowing a greeting would be to show distrust. He could not affordÂ not to listen to her words, and she knew it.</p>
<p>&#8220;Hail Telikai, Speaker of Men,&#8221; she replied, matching his motions gracefully.Â &#8221;The hunts have not gone well.&#8221; Hers was a statement, not a question.</p>
<p>Telikai, leader of the tribe in matters physical, blinked. Her words brokeÂ ritual, in a surprising way. He would have offered her a place at his hutfire,Â supplies from his stores, but she had bypassed the formal ways and goneÂ to the meat of the matter quickly. He fumbled for a few moments, then shookÂ his head. &#8220;No, they have not.&#8221; His head quirked sideways, one eye narrowed.Â &#8221;How had you heard? The men have said nothing to the others yet.&#8221;</p>
<p>Naka smiled. &#8220;I have not been Speaker without learning to listen as well;Â the snows have come early, and strong. The deer have all but silenced. TheÂ wolves cry at night. Even the squirrels call out to the trees, begging forÂ food, and the trees have entered their sleep and are dreaming of FatherÂ Sun, heeding no-one&#8217;s call. I know.&#8221;</p>
<p>The Speaker of Men grimaced, then sighed. &#8220;You are right, of course. ThreeÂ parties have gone into the forest in search of game. Two deer have beenÂ trapped, their spirits thanked, their bones returned to the earth, and aÂ rabbit as well, but this will not feed enough, or for long.&#8221;</p>
<p>The Speaker of the Wild nodded in response. &#8220;How are your stores, Telikai?&#8221;</p>
<p>The gnarled man turned his back and lowered his gaze. &#8220;Three days. PerhapsÂ four. Then&#8230;.&#8221;</p>
<p>The pair left the thought unfinished; they knew what came next. Naka shookÂ her head. &#8220;As I thought, then.&#8221;</p>
<p>Both stood then, silent for a time, each lost in thought. Telikai broke theÂ silence first. &#8220;You have made all the requests you could?&#8221;</p>
<p>Naka turned away from the older man, looking back across the clearing. WhenÂ she spoke, her voice carried an odd low rumble to it. &#8220;No, there is oneÂ last request to be made.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;One last?&#8221; Telikai sounded indignant. &#8220;How long had you intented toâ€”&#8221;</p>
<p>The Speaker of the Wild turned then, her eyes carrying a gleam that TelikaiÂ had never seen before, a hint of something feral, wide, brown and cold, likeÂ amber. &#8220;I waited until the time was right, Telikai; I know my duties, as youÂ know yours.&#8221; She faced the clearing once more, looking about the variousÂ huts and houses. &#8220;Tonight, you will feast. Tomorrow, you will know yourÂ tasks. Have Yani brought to my hut; she will understand.&#8221; With that, sheÂ left, leaving Telikai to stand with his hut open to the winds, staring afterÂ her in surprise.</p>
<p>Naka&#8217;s preparations went quickly, far more so than she had thought theyÂ would. Though she had rehearsed the rite more times than a tree has leaves,Â she had never performed it, nor, after today, would she again, if all went as it should. Relighting the fire in her hut took longer than she wanted,Â but once started, the bundles of leaves and hair that she wound burstÂ alight, filling her longhouse with pungent smoke. Painstakingly, she heldÂ each limb in the air over the fire as if bathing in the smoke, washingÂ in the heat, all the while reciting the litany of her life and her roleÂ as Speaker of the Wild, translator for human ears of the voices they couldÂ not understand. Then, when she finished, she snuffed the flame with a furÂ pulled from her bed, which she then wrapped around herself while still warm.</p>
<p>Once outside, the air seemed warm to her, though she knew it was all partÂ of her ritual, and yet a part of her mind was enthralled. The ground wasÂ pleasantly cool, a far cry from the icy trudge it had been before. HerÂ steps carried her quickly beyond the domain of humans, into the forestsÂ themselves. The trees, sleeping and dreaming of green and of warm and ofÂ sun, seemed eerily quiet to her ears, and her nose caught naught but iceÂ and snow and her own scent. A distant corner of her mind worried that herÂ ritual had been in vain, but she told herself with quiet determinationÂ that her call would take time.</p>
<p>Her senses drifted then, mind losing itself easily to the eternal now asÂ was her wont when isolated from the world of people. How long she walked,Â breathing and sensing and living in the world of spirits without knowledgeÂ of when or where or why, was immaterial. Time was meaningless. The treesÂ were here, the sky was here, the earth was here. All else was distant,Â unimportant. Her summons was answered; the scent of bear approached.</p>
<p>She was tall, her fur more white and grey than brown or black, her eyesÂ clouded. She smelled barren; no cubs had come from her in several years,Â a fact she did not enjoy but could not regret; she knew her place in theÂ web of existence, and not to be called upon to fulfill her duty wasÂ disappointing, but she had birthed cubs in the past and came knowingÂ that her time was nigh.</p>
<p>Naka knelt, bowing her head and kissing the earth before the sow, prostratingÂ herself and venerating the lifegiver. The shebear nodded her response, and the Speaker of the Wild lifted her gaze to meet the other&#8217;s. The exchange from there was brief, Naka apologizing for her presumption, pleading the lifeÂ of her village, and offering the standard trade. The old one reared onto herÂ hinds, seemingly in defiance, then dropped to the ground again and nodded;Â it had been a long and hard life for her as well, though a rewarding one.</p>
<p>The rock came to Naka&#8217;s hands even as the shebear lay against the earth, andÂ a single blow was enough to dim the light in her eyes. A second split herÂ skull, her still-warm brains a tasty treat for the Speaker of the Wild. Then Naka lay atop the sow, placing her arms and legs along those of the coolingÂ body. She felt the heat from the lifegiver seeping into her bones, washingÂ through her.</p>
<p>Soon she felt too hot even as new snow began to fall and a wind picked upÂ in the air. She tossed aside her furs, layer by layer until she stood nakedÂ over the prone form of her mother-sister. Her mind swam in heat, sweating as fur began to pierce through her skin in a grey-brown coat, fingers growingÂ fat and stubby, claws ripping through their tips. Her face distended, bodyÂ swelling as she became one with those whose voices she had represented.Â Almost as an afterthought, the short stubby tail popped itself into place,Â and Naka shook, rearing onto her own hinds and roaring out her acceptance ofÂ the gift, even as she knew Yani would be finding herself with child in aÂ few days.</p>
<p>Finding game enough to feed the village would take time, but she would haveÂ far more success than any of the others could, and tonight, at least, herÂ village would feast on the body of the lifegiver. They would sing herÂ praises, as they sang Naka&#8217;s. Then, when every last one had had their fill,Â they would take her bones and, as they would with any sacred elder, theyÂ would return her to the earth.</span><br /></span>
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